Being Different

What about him?

Just a warning: it does have a panic attack in this chapter. It doesn't go super in detail, but in more detail than the last chapter. 

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Roman's POV

"What about him?" Morality said. I could tell that he was worried.

"Well I found his bedroom door and I knocked on it to talk to him," I started explaining what happened. "I ended up yelling at him and now I think he's mad at me. And I saw tears coming to his eyes." I paused. "I just remembered something," I stated.

"What is it?" Patton asked. I looked at the parental figure.

"I think he was crying when I first knocked on his door," I stated. That made me feel worse.

"I'll talk to him," Morality stated getting up. I nodded and walked out of his room. Maybe I'll go see Thomas.

Patton's POV

I was a bit shocked when Roman told me what happened. Being the parent I could tell that Roman felt sorry for what he did and said and knowing Anxiety he probably is repeating it to himself over and over again in his head.

I got the Anxiety's bedroom door and knocked. I wouldn't be surprised if he didn't even answer the door. I would be surprised if he was asleep though. He's Anxiety, he doesn't get hardly any sleep at all. Getting no answer I knocked on his door again and heard a groan.

"Anxiety, I'm going to unlock your door," I said through the door. Not getting an answer in reply I opened the door.

Anxiety's POV

I couldn't stop it. I tried, but I failed. I'm a failure. No one cares anyway. Why would they? I'm a disorder. Everyone wants me gone. Maybe I should go. I can convince Thomas to take those anxiety pills. If he takes enough of them I might just disappear. He wants me gone. So does Roman and Logan. Patton probably does too.

I heard a knock. I did NOT want to deal with anyone right now. Especially if it was Roman again, he now knows where my room is and so does Patton. I felt another attack starting and I groaned as I curled up into a ball. I heard a voice, but it sounded far away and I couldn't tell what or who it was. I couldn't even tell what they were saying. I feel trapped. I am trapped. Trapped and alone.

I couldn't do it. I can't stop. I heard my door opening. I couldn't stop whoever opened it. I didn't want them to see me in the state I am in. It was too late. Whoever opened my door was next to me. I was still curled in a ball, but I heard a voice. Not as far away as before, but it didn't sound like it was closer either.

"Breath with me," I tried. My body couldn't control itself. "Feel my chest. Make yours rise and fall like mine." Someone grabbed my hand and put it on their chest. I tried to make mine rise and fall the same time as theirs. I could feel my body slowly calm down and I uncurled from my position. "Good, now look around and tell me 5 things you can see."

I opened my eyes to see Patton sitting next to me.

"I..I see you," I tried to keep my breath steady.

"Good. Now what else?" He asked me. I looked around my room. I started listing things I saw.

Logan's POV

I could tell that Thomas wanted to see me. I felt the tugging.

"Greetings Thomas," I said popping up in my usual spot by the stairs. "Why did you want me?"

"Hey Logan." He replied. "I just have a question."

"And what might that be?" I asked him.

"If I took some anxiety pills, what would it do to Anxiety?" He asked. He looked extremely nervous.

"Well. I think the worst it could do is shut him up for a little while." I replied back.

"Okay thanks. You can go now." He waved his hand as if to dismiss me.

I went back to my room to finish reading the chapter I was on. It is my favorite book by Agatha Christie. Why would Thomas ask such a question? Unless...was he planning on taking pills to calm Anxiety down? He has been bothering Thomas more than usual. Maybe it will do both Thomas and Anxiety some good.