Being Different

Memories

Logan's POV

All we need now is to get Virgil out of his room. That hopefully won't be that hard. But with Virgil you never know. Everyone but Virge was in Thomas's living room.

"Shall we go get him?" Patton asked. Thomas nodded.

"Virgil," Thomas called the darker one. We all looked towards the stairs. He didn't show.

"Virgil, come on out buddy," Patton exclaimed. Still he didn't show.

Virgil's POV

My room seemed to get darker. Everyday. I knew the shadows of my were winning, but I didn't remember how to stop them. I was curled up in my bed ready to face another day alone in my room. Just me, the shadows and my thoughts. I felt a tugging feeling, the same one from a couple days ago. I resisted against it. Why? I don't know. It felt as if something was keeping me in my room. The tugging feeling came harder and once again I couldn't bring myself to follow it. Like I said before the shadows are winning. I wonder if Logan is doing anything to help get my memory back. I haven't really been around anyone lately so I don't know if he is. Part of me wishes he will and part of me hopes he doesn't.

"Virgil." I heard a knock on my door. I groaned.

"What do you want?" I groaned. I didn't want anyone to come in and bother me at the moment, but I did at the same time. It's strange how I'm like that. I want something, but I don't. But if I don't get it I feel like I need it. I don't know how else to describe it.

"Come and open the door." The voice said cheerfully. I knew it wasn't Logan. The voice was to cheery and it wasn't Patton because he didn't say kiddo. Roman. It's got to be Roman.

"Go away Roman." I said covering myself with my blankets.

"You have been in your room for the past three days. Come on out at be with us." Roman replied. I was right.

"No," I mumbled and I curled more into myself. I felt like sleeping, but I knew that wouldn't happen. I heard someone talking to Roman, but I couldn't tell who it was, or what they were saying.

"Come on kiddo," that was Patton. "We have a surprise for you."

"What is it?" I mumbled.

"Are you going to come?" Roman said from the other side of the door.

"Depends what it is." I replied.

"Thomas is doing a video and we would like you to come and join us." Patton said.

"Fine, but just for a little while." I sat up and opened the door.

"Yay." Patton said cheerfully. Roman smiled.

"Let's get this over with," I mumbled following Patton and Roman into the real world.

"Glad you guys are all here." Thomas said. The living room looked different then when I first met Thomas. I guess when I first met Thomas after my memory loss. I glanced around the room. Everyone was in different spots and there was a camera set up.

"We are doing a Q and A." Logan said looking me. "We haven't done one of them in awhile and you probably don't remember." I shook my head no. "Thomas asked people to send in questions and we have to answer them." Logan explained.

"Shall we begin?" Thomas asked looking around. Everyone nodded. Questions and Answers. hopefully it's not too bad. Thomas started asking the others questions and I zoned out.

"Virgil." I was brought back to reality. "this question is for you." Thomas stated. Oh boy.

"Who out of everyone is your favorite?" Thomas read from his phone. Patton, no doubt. Everyone was staring at me waiting for me to answer.

"Uh..I.." I stuttered. Would the other's feelings get hurt if I told them.

"Answer the question so we could move on." Roman said. Too much pressure.

"Patton," I whispered and sank down to go to my room.

"Wait Virge." Roman came after me. He ran and caught up to me.

"What do you wait." I hissed. I just wanted to be left alone.

"Are you mad at us?" He asked me. He stared at me. I glared at him.

"I just want to be left alone." I replied. My voice sounded harsher than I intended it to be.

"You are always alone. Why can't you accept any help?" Roman raised his voice a little making me become angry.

"Maybe I don't want help." I yelled at him.

"We spent a LOT of time putting together a plan to help you!" He shouted back. "and you don't even care. You can't feel sorry for yourself all the time! Do you want to get your memory back?" He yelled.

"I don't even know if I'll ever get it back." I whispered looking at the ground. "do you know how hard it is to have everyone know you and you don't know anything?" Roman stopped and stood there. Tears were threatening to spill down my face. I felt one on my cheek and that's when I turned and ran to my room. Roman stood there not doing anything.

I sat on my bed tears spilling down my face. I heard a voice. I slowly looked around and realized they were just in my head.

"Maybe if you didn't exist he would actually be able to get more sleep"

"Why are you like this? Wherever you are or where ever you go you make it a disaster."

"Nobody asks you to be there, you just show up to make Thomas feel bad. You are a disorder! You are unwanted!"

With nothing else to stop it the thoughts rang through my head over and over again. Each time becoming more and more familiar. I realized it was Roman's voice and the thoughts were things that he's told me before.

I remembered everything. Me annoying Thomas. Roman coming to the rescue then yelling at me for causing distress to Thomas.

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The next chapter might be the last chapter of this story. Just a heads up. But I don't know for sure yet.

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