After sitting down and realizing your whole life was a lie you can get pretty messed up I'm not saying that I'm ungrateful for the life I once knew I'm just saying that If this is how it would have been from the beginning I probably wouldn't have had to go through as much of the tragic stuff and could have focused on the more important stuff like my education and well being I had dropped out of high school and totally missed all of my doctors appointments for a boy that I thought loved me but come to realize was cheating on me and only wanted my innocence why Is life so fucked up you ask well keep on asking because I have no clue come to think of it nobody really knows why and that's what sucks you don't know what to expect when it comes to life you just know that it's there and there's nothing that you can do to stop it
Not that you want to stop it I feel like life is a never ending cycle your born to die yet people still think it's appropriate to grieve your death and find themselves responsible let me just say this if I had a dollar for every time someone thought it was there fault why someone else died I would have been able to pay for the medication to cure my disease but I didn't and I don't so here I am asking pleading why is life so fucked up? I'm here alive and thankful but at the same time counting the seconds the minutes and hours to that pause ----- when I'll see the the light and have my happy ending
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