Not My Mate (On Hold)

Chapter 1

I know, I should be working right now, but I'm having a hard time concentrating. It is simply impossible. Never have I been able to contain myself, not when he's nearby. My wolf drives me insane.

My wolf growls in annoyance, clearly not liking the blame I put upon her.

I rolled my eyes at her. She could be so pesky at times. If only she would leave me alone at times like these, to grant me a moment of inner peace.

'To bad I don't evanish when you want me to.' Rue snarled, she's so petulant.

'Just drop it, I'm trying to enjoy the prodigious view of our mate.'

He's really not that perfect...

Who am I trying to fool. Of course he is. Claiming him not to be perfect is the biggest lie ever told.

Caden is an Adonis of a man, the epiphany of beauty and he is 'merely' the prince, my future king.

Absolutely nothing perfect about that. To be honest I'm not quite sure who I was trying to convince.

'Go to him!' Rue urged. I rolled my eyes. She knew I wouldn't do that. We weren't meant for each other. Surely the moon goddess must have made a mistake pairing me with Caden.
I just can't.

'You can't or you won't?' Rue hissed.

'You know I can't! He won't accept us! We're low ranks, just some unimportant servant, no nobility.' And either way, I was just fine observing him from a reasonable distance.

'He's not going to reject us, he's our mate.' She muttered.

The bond my wolf and I once shared, had become weaker over the past couple of years, but I couldn't go without her. My wolf and I are 2 complete opposites, our personalities are nothing alike. She is a blabbermouth and I am what you would call, spineless. I just do what's asked of me.

I'm quiet and I keep to myself rather than to bother anyone else with my problems. It angers Rue at times, it's hard to control her when she tries to surface.

'You don't always do what's asked from you, you didn't listen to our mate...' Rue objected, 'you even denied the king's order, not such a good girl as you claim te be.' She taunted.

'I did what was best.' I stated. It was the right thing to do.
'I'm not going over there, and that's the end of it.' I said sadly.

I just want to be in Caden's warm arms really. Having him kiss my forehead and smile down at me, stroking my hair untill I fall asleep, warm and safe in my mate's arms.

But I won't let that happen. I would only get hurt in the process.

'Come on Riley! He is going to find us someday! He's been looking for you since the day we ran into him' she pointed out. I groaned, she always reminds me of that day.

'You're not only hurting yourself, Riley, you are hurting him as well.' She was right once more.

'He can't find out Rue, and he won't' I snapped. Rue laughed dryly.

'What makes you think he won't find you? The day you turn 18, there will be nothing to stop him from finding you.' she told me. I sighed, knowing she was right.

When a wolf turns 18, that is the moment that the wolf is full grown, it's like becoming an adult. But it also makes your scent stronger, but only noticeable for your mate. I've noticed this when Caden turned 18, that was 3 years ago.

I hated those times, my wolf kept pushing me to go to him. The urge to be with him was always there, it still is. But I never gave in, I never confronted him. I wouldn't do that to him, he would be so disappointed.

He doesn't want some plain looking girl, a worker.

'Don't put yourself down like that.' Rue whined. Like I said... complete different personalities.

I think I should go back to inside the castle. I've been watching my handsome mate long enough now. I don't want to get caught.

'I don't want to go.' Rue desperately begged me.

'You know we have to. We don't want anyone to find us' and with that I made my way back tot he castle.

'Speak for yourself.' she snarled.

'I'm sorry Rue, but we will never be his.' I sighed, I felt myself going weak at my own words. Tears building up in my eyes.

'Riley I know you want him, he is our mate, why don't you just give in? he'll find us anyway' Rue insisted.

'No Rue, I have been hiding for 4 years! And I haven't been caught. I won't ever be his, last time I did a reality check, I was told that he never would want a servant for mate' I said, and I whiped away some of my traitor tears.

Rue stayed silence, probably pissed at me.

Ever since the night we ran into Caden sparks enterrupted my whole body. I was 14 at the time. Too young to realize what I had to do.
I was too young to make a decision like that on my own.

My 18th birthday is only two days away. To be honest, I am not looking forward to it. 

Caden would be prepared for this day.
He knew that one day he would wake up and smell his mate, me.

I had to turn 18 someday.
It wouldn't be hard for him to track me down. Caden is royalty, his abilities to run fast and hear, smell and see better, were more advanced than normal werewolves. Or servants like me.

I've managed to hide from him these 4 years because he didn't know what I looked like.

Normally when mates meet and make eye contact they remember each other no matter what, but since I'm merely a servant, I don't make eye contact.

My mother raised me well and teached me to show respect to those above me, for example by downcasting my eyes in the presence of higher ranked people.

So when I bumped into him, I knew he was my mate, and he must have felt me being his as well, but he never knew who I was.

The same night the Queen and the King called all the families together. All maidens were obliged to present them to the royal family and most importantly, to Caden.

However I managed to run away. My parents understood my fears and supported me, they didn't agree with what I was doing but helped me none-the-less, and they still do.

The only thing that Caden saw from me 4 years ago was my hair. My hair was Blonde/brown. As soon as I discovered they were looking for a girl with Blonde/brown hair, like mine, I decided to color it. Now I have pure brown hair.

They searched through the whole castle, every single spot. But they didn't find me. My parents had send me beyond the borders for a couple of months, to escape the royal search.

Caden still hasn't given up though . He is still looking for me, desperate to find me.
But I'm glad he hasn't, I would be a disappointment to everyone, to the people, the kingdom, to his parents, to him.

I was scared for what was going to happen, I had to find a way to hide myself when I turn 18, he will find me if I stay here. But I couldn't  find it in me to leave my family behind, not forever.

"Riley there you are! Come on we have to do our chores." My mom said as I walked through the hallway to our rooms. I nodded and followed her.

'I work for him' I sighed, disgusted with myself. I am a servant to the palace and I serve him. His family doesn't trade us as slaves, but as normal people. We have a great life. This is our pack and they are our alpha and  Luna.

And their future alpha king, the prince, Caden, is my mate.

I don't deserve him, I am too less for him. I don't understand why I am his mate.

I tried shrugging it all off as I started with my chores.

2 days, I only have only 2 days to come up with a plan.