Storybrooke Scandal - A SwanQueen story

Fear

~*~ Emma's pov ~*~

I got up and smiled at Regina and Henry as Hook and I got ready to leave Granny's again.

"Still on for girl's night on Saturday?" I asked the brunette and she nodded with a smile.
"Of course! I'll pick you up at 8?" She asked and I chuckled.
"You're avoiding having to ride in my bug, aren't you?" I called her out on it and she scrunched her nose.
"I'm not getting in that deathtrap." She said and Henry just chuckled behind his hand. Regina shot him a glare to make him stop and I just shook my head.
"Fine... I'll see you at 8." I turned to Killian and smiled. "Let's go?" He nodded and greeted everyone before we left.

I'm sure you're wondering how Regina and I got ourselves into this mess in the first place. We each have a man that we're married to and yet we're together. I suppose it does require an explanation.

When I first came to Storybrooke, things were much different. I was in a place I didn't know with people I had never met and apparently my son that I gave up for adoption years ago found it necessary to drag me here because of some curse, which I at the time didn't believe in.

After first meeting Regina, tensions were extremely high. It was pretty obvious that after only a couple of hours she wanted nothing else than to drive me out of town, back where I came from and restore the peace in Storybrooke. Me being me of course did the opposite of what she wanted. No one tells me what to do! The more she wanted me gone, the more I wanted to stay.

Tensions kept building as we fought over the one thing we had in common. Our son. Then on one particular day, everything changed. It had been a few months and surely Regina and I had been doing a little better. It was before the curse broke when suddenly Regina had denied me to see my son again, so I stormed into her office angrily with only one purpose in mind, seeing my son again.

"Why in the hell are you forbidding me to see Henry this time?!" I yelled while bursting through the door. The Mayor didn't seem too impressed with me and just smirked.
"How else would I get you into my office?" She asked and got up. She was wearing a dark red, skin tight dress that hugged her curves just right. I was so angry at that time, but that anger was soon forgotten as she slowly moved closer to me, swaying her hips more than necessary. I didn't understand what was happening to me as suddenly all I could think about was her, that dress and the desk, pretty much in that order. I couldn't help the fact that my body just moved on instinct as I grabbed her by her hips and crashed my lips upon her plump ones, not being able to resist the undeniable pull of attraction and so much more. I was hesitant at first, but as she kissed me back and weaved her hands into my curly blonde hair, I knew this was mutual and I loved every single moment of it. We quickly went from against the door, progressed to the wall only to end at the desk. Never have I ever felt as amazing as I have when I was with her... The passion in the kisses we shared, the way our greedy hands pulled at each other's clothes to get them off as quickly as we could, followed by lusty gropes and kisses, licks and nips filled with desire.

Everything changed since that day, the tension that was created by anger and hate had shifted to desire and lust in a split second. Things were less complicated then as we were free to do what we wanted yet always kept what we had secret. That one time in the office evolved into many times in the office, the sheriffs' station, her home office and any other room that had a flat surface.

Our relationship is purely sexual. A lust and desire that we harbor for each other that we just can't help. Sometimes I do wonder if it's perhaps more than that... I do have certain feelings for Regina that I don't have for Hook. I did consider at some point telling her about what I felt, but I decided against it, not wanting to ruin what I have with that gorgeous woman.

And so, here we are... I'm sitting in a car, married to a man that doesn't even know what a smartphone is, let alone anything technological or otherwise. If there is one thing I regret, it's that I married him just because I'm too scared to tell Regina how I really feel about her... I sometimes wonder what it would have been like if I did tell her, if she would still be married to Robin or not, or perhaps... If we would have been married instead, but I guess I'll never find out now. I feel like we may missed our opportunity.

I look at Hook as I kill the engine when we arrive home.
"I love you." I smiled at him, yet the statement was completely false. I wonder if he knows that I've been lying to him since day one.