SINCEREST [Part 2]

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"all she was asking me was to apologize her and her son, ... Harry! I couldn't forgive him, .. and ,,... and she breathe her last in front of me,... her hand slipped away from mine" I was sobbing in harry's arms while we were going for the funeral to the graveyard, Mom was with Hala and they were already there

"shh! don't cry love, .. she was a good soul" harry was continuously condoling me

"i can't help myself right now'' I sniffed

"you don't have to, ... trust me,.. its okay" he kissed on the top of my head, and we reached there. as we were about to get off from the car, it quickly came into my mind that Rayyan might be here now, I stopped and harry knew what I'm thinking,

"don't worry about him, I'm with you" he pulled his hand out for me and I grabbed it and we walked towards them, everyone was sniffing quietly around us, I saw Mom she was standing alone, I quickly thought about Hala where she'd be, as I ran my eyes around in the crowd, I saw her she was not alone, she was crying in someone's arms, her brother Rayyan. I didn't leave harry's hand but because of crowd  and so much tension in the air I really wanted to go away from there for a little while

"I-I think I need some air harry" I tried to walk away from the crowd

"be right back honey, I'm going towards Mom,.. is it okay with you" harry asked, still holding my hand

"of course" I walked away from there, not too far, but still I wanted to cry away from everyone. I cried a little bit, because I was not able to handle so many tantrums in a day. stop crying jasmin, everything's gonna be fine, you can handle it, be strong, be brave, not for yourself, for mom, for hala, and for babies, I somehow pulled myself together, and I was looking towards everyone, from the distance

"looks like funeral is over" everyone seemed scattering now. and just then the reminder of my noon dose chimed on phone screen, I slapped my head, I texted harry that I'm going towards car to take my tablets cause it can't be late

"Where did mommy keep the tablets" I was talking to myself, trying to find the tablets from my bag in the backseat standing outside, I kept the door open with my hips

"well-uh congratulations mommy to be" his raspy voice ran shivers down to my spine, I quickly turned around finding him very much closer to me, his one hand was resting on the top of the door of the car, and other hand in his pant pocket, I moved back in no space, I fell back on the seat, but I managed myself to sit down, my heart beat was insanely fast I was so afraid, I made up a tiny possibility that he might behave as he promised, but his eyes were telling another story, there was mischief in his eyes, the corner of his eyes swollen as if he cried all night, and he seemed hurt, of course his mother just get buried, I gulped down and looked at him silently

"honey! don't worry, I will not harm you" he was trying to soften his eyes but I knew what was behind them, he raised his hand loosely and rubbed the back of it against my cheek and neck, and I slapped his hand and pushed his chest

"Rayyan! You're disgusting" I realized that he was drunk, his breath stunk, he was hurt, and I felt guilty for being so rude to him

"why is my baby so angry with me, sorry that I couldn't catch up with you, I was just out of state, catching fish of all kinds, you know, your husband kicked me out, kinda" he mumbled, as his steps tumbled when he gripped the door and stood straight, I was just watching him silently praying that he doesn't passes out here

"Oh God!" I mumbled in disgust knowing what he meant my fish of all kinds

"Now that I'm back, I promise now, I'll never keep you waiting" he laughed maniacally when I was just watching him in horror frowning my eyebrows worriedly