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32 ↣ forgive me

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Cold water was running down my spine, I was taking a shower to calm my nerves down but it seemed like no help was near me. My eyes were red from all the crying and staying awake for the whole night. I can still remember the sight of Harry suddenly puling onto the floor, he looked so pale and weak. I also remember my racing and hurting heart at that moment and how everything started to move in slow motion just like in movies, but I still rushed over his side and called for help.

When he was getting help I couldn't stand the sight of him and left without saying anything. That's probably one of the moments I will regret in my life.

My hands trembled after they were pressed against the wall, my nails were trying to bore into the hard wall. "Fuck!"

I knew that I had to apologize for all the terrible things I did. I said really bad things to him on that day, but I didn't mean to. My mouth just started move on itself and my tongue felt like toxic afterwards.

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Hours later I was sitting in the hallway, on a bench. I was waiting for the other band members to come out so I could talk to Harry on my own.

Harry was in a hospital, getting some treatment due to lack of sleep and the stress that liked up. And all of it was my fault, I only thought about me and I was blinded by all the anxiety that I didn't see that Harry was hurting inside.

"Niall. . . Don't go hard on him, please." I stood up and looked at my friends, there were three of them standing. Zayn looked rather displeased and disappointed in me, Liam seemed sad and his bed hair was terrible and Louis, I couldn't sense what he was feeling at that moment. But I knew that all of them wanted to slap me for being so inconsiderate.

"We can imagine how you feel Niall, but that was kind of harsh. Don't you think?" Zayn said, patting my shoulder and leaving with a nodding Liam and a silent Louis. I really screwed up big time.

My knuckles knocked on the hospital door, but I didn't wait for an answer and just entered. I felt my hands starting to tremble again, along with my shaking teeth. "Niall?"

". . .Hello Harry. . ."

"What do you want." He looked away, his eyes were avoiding mine and I didn't blame him. He had all the rights to avoid and detest me for what I did to him.

"I know you don't want to see my face an–"

"You're right! I don't want to see you, so please just leave me alone."

Stab. His words were stabbing me in a painful way.

"Wait. . . Please listen to me Harry. I want to apologize! I know I was foolish. . And only thought about me! But. . . But!" He shook his head and clutched the covers with all his strength. He was about to cry and I was too. But I did not mean to give up just now, so I walked closer towards the hurting man and knelt myself in front of him. My hands were making their ways towards his hand — the one with the ring on — and I held it.

"I didn't mean to distance myself from you. . . I know that it was the second time I did something that terrible but I kind of tried to shield myself from all the pain. Due to my selfishness of not wanting to hurt, I hurt the most important person instead. You're the only precious person to me and I ignored you. I did all of that to you, even though you understood how I was feeling. . . I. . I'm a terrible person!"

I paused and looked down onto the sheets, his ring was reflecting the light that was coming from the windows. A sad smile started to from on my lips, "You know. . It hurts a whole lot when people don't accept your relationship. It hurts when they want your loved one to be with someone else. I know it should not bother me because you said that you only love me. But I can't seem to feel at ease with all the expectations coming to people who guided us."

My brows furrowed and I felt tears rolling down my probably red cheeks.

"But I want to stay strong, I don't want to keep hurting you. That's why I thought hard about what's ahead of us."

My hands started to sweat and I was sure that Harry could feel my unsure self,

"That's why I want us to come out."

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wow another cliffhanger.

comment #NarryComingOut if yourself excited for the next few chapters.

well there are only 3 chapters ahead or so I think. maybe we'll write some extras if we feel like it but still.

we also lost a huge amount of readers AHAHHA from 1k dropping to +200 ,,, but still thank you guys for sticking with us!!

question; what is your favorite Harry song?

my answer: Two Ghosts or Sweet Creatures  are like my favs but it's hard to choose cause all of the songs are great wodnidkwql