Why do you love me? (SEQUEL to WDILY?, On hold)

Chapter 12

Okay so i know some of you think the both of them are really emotional but remember, They are grieving for the lost of there children, and they dont know how to handle it. And plus having a mild stalker is very scary, trust me I KNOW FROM EXPERIENCE!!!! Also did anyone figure out that message yet the contest note was at the end of the last chapter. SO this is in Cherlninda's P.O.V..

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We sat there. Rocking back and forth while he silently cried on my shoulder. His body shaking harshly beneath me, as if trying so hard not to make a sound. As if ashamed. Its like he was trying to hide his face in my neck. His arms were tight around around my waist. I felt him breathing me in, his body shaking, calming for a mintue only to start up again.

"Im sorry!!!" He sobbed againest my neck.

"What do you have to be sorry about? You didnt do anything" I said softly.

He was breaking my heart here. These past few days were nothing compared to how this was right now. The shell he built around himself broke right in front of my eyes.

"I was suppose to protect them. I was suppose to protect my children and i couldnt do that. God they're only a couple of weeks old!!! What if he hurts them? What if he kills them slowly? What if he doesnt feed them or give them water or something? What if they shift and he forces them in his pack?" This is all my fault!!!" He sobbed his arms tightening around me to much im suprised it didnt hurt.

My stomach twisted and turned. I felt so bad.

"Jared, none of this was your fault, NONE OF IT. You are a terrific father. You have the whole pack searching for them, your on edge and you havent stopped thinking about them ever. They arent hurt i can tell" I said honestly.

"Look what I did to you!!! I made you a emotional reck because i was hiding myself. I was even hurting you. You ask me how i could love you, how the hell can you love me?" He quivered.

"Jared, you hid and it effected me more then it should have. And i was fine taking most of it from you. Because if i dont, you'd be like you are now. And there isnt enough time in the world for me to list to you why i love you" I said honestly rubbing circles in his back with my hand.

He picked his head from my my neck and i felt my heart break all over again. His happy grey eyes were now a lifeless dull grey. They were bloodshot and tired. His face was red his black hair starting to fall a little in his face. His mouth was parted slightly and he was panting. As if the crying knocked the breathe out of him.

"How do you know there okay?" He said with a tone so dull it was as if he thought i didnt have a anwser.

"I dont know, i can feel it kind of, as crazy as it sounds. Its like i feel like i would know if they werent okay. I dont know if its a mother thing or a wolf thing but i know they are okay" I said sincerely.

He swallowed and nodded putting his face back into the base of my neck and sighed. His body started to shake a little again but not as bad. He was still crying. I tangled my hands in his hair to sooth him.

"Are you sure?" He mumbled.

"I am, and you have to trust me, okay?" I said softy.

"I trust you," He whispered.

I dont know how long we sat there but he wasnt asleep, but he was breatheing heavily down my neck which was unfortunately right where my mark was. I rubbed circles in his back with my hand trying to comfort him and trying not to show the pleasure he was giving me. Soon after a long time he picked his face out of my neck.