Simple is an understatement...
What am I thinking? Leaving the country! How could I afford it? Where would i live? How would I survive, especially with a baby?! But then it hit me... I have family in England why not start my new life there? But would they take me in knowing that I'm pregnant? I talk to my cousin, Dani all the time. Her & her family seems like very nice people. I would only stay with them until I get myself together. I have 9 months to turn my life around! I can do it I know I can! I have enough money saved to fly there I just need to talk to Jade and her parents... I wonder what Shauna will think about all this... I pick myself off the ground and head back to Shauna's house mentally preparing me for the chat I'm about to have with her & Jade...
As I place my hand on the door knob I take deep breath, you can do this Isabella!
"Hi, Mr. and Mrs. Soriano"
"Hello Sweetie, how was your time at the park", says Shauna's mother.
"Great... Where is Shauna?” I ask.
"She's up in her room honey", she answers.
With that said i make my way up to her room praying she agrees with me what I have planned for me and my baby's future. I walk in the room to find her on her laptop.
"Hey Izzy”, she greets me with my nickname.
"Hey,how was your day?”, I ask.
"Pretty Good. Where were you all afternoon? Don’t tell me at the park again?" she assumes.
"Yes I was actually" I whisper with my head down.
"Izzy, it isn't good that you spend all your time there, you need to get out and be sociable", she scolds
"I just feel like I don't belong here anymore, this is isn't the place for me. I have too many memories here and most of them are bad. I need to get away”, I say.
She looks at me puzzled. Here it comes, the moment I have been avoiding.
"What is it? What do you have to tell me? C'mon Izzy I've know you since the 5th grade, I know when something's up", she exclaims.
Ok well here goes nothing...
"I want to leave, and I mean leave the country.” I whisper, finally letting the words leave my lips.
"The country?! Where are you going go?!” she says calmly but stern.
"I'm not happy here and you know it! I need to start my life over, a clean slate. I want to give my baby a better life than I had, I think leaving America will help me do that. I have family in England and I believe that they will help me. I plan on speaking with my cousin tonight. I'm doing this with or without your blessing Shauna, but I hope you understand why I have to do this.” I finish, with tears streaming down my face.
She pauses for a long time but then I realize she is also in tears. This will be one of the hardest things I will ever have to do. She has been my best friend forever, but in my gut I know I have to do this.
Next thing I know, Shauna embraces me in a hug.
"Even though I am going to miss you tons, all I want is for you to be happy", she whispers.
This is it I've decided! Now all I have to is ask my cousin and her family...
I was super nervous to ask Jade and her family but it turns out they were super nice about it. They understood my whole situation and promised me I could stay with them in London until I get my stuff together and ready to live on my own...
Also Shauna is allowed to come with me to help me get settled, I am so relieved she's coming with me!
I am absolutely terrified, but I know I have to do this!
The Journey begins now... & I'm not letting anything stand in my way!
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FanfictionIsabella seems like the normal 18 year old girl with a normal life. She has a pretty face, beautiful smile, and the greatest best friend that anyone could ask for. But there is one thing, one major thing that is keeping her life from being perfect...
