What If?

Chapter 3

"Isabella? ISABELLA!!” Jade yells through my cellphone.

I am frozen. I can't breathe. I try to find the words to speak.

"Yeah... Uh... I'm... Uhh here”, I say still having trouble breathing.

I. Was. Freaking. Talking/flirting. With. A. Famous. Boy. Band. 

I am at lost for words.

"Isabella, talk to me! Are you alright?” she asks sounding worried. 

"Yes, I'm fine, I think ", I whisper.

"Are you sure? You don’t sound fine. Wait, is One Direction really in there?” she asks.

"Umm... Yeah. Uh I think so.., there are 5 of them and their names are Louis, Liam,Zayn, Niall, and Harry”, I say hopefully getting their names right.

"Oh God Isabella! That's them! I need to get in there now. Tell the security guards that I'm your cousin.” she says.

How I can I walk over there when I can't feel my legs! I feel the boys eyes on me making me feel even worse than I already do.

After a few minutes of just standing there like a statue, I finally start to make my way over to the entrance.

I spot the boys security guard, Paul was it?

"Hi, umm you are Paul right?” I say as I tap him.

"Yes love what can I do for you?” he ask sweetly.

"Well, my cousin Jade is outside and I was wondering if you could please let her in?” I ask in a shaky voice.

“Yeah sure, I will get her right now”, he says as he leaves.

My breathing pattern is uneven. Jade finally walks in, and instantly starts staring at the boys. I give a gentle slap on her arm.

“Would you please stop staring at them? You are making it worse! I am embarrassed enough”, I say feeling my whole body heat up. I don’t know if it was morning sickness or my nerves acting up but I was suddenly hit with the feeling of nausea. Before I knew it I was a running to the ladies room. Ok great now I made myself look even more like an idiot. Can this day get any worse? They probably all left because of my stupidity. I hear Jade knocking on my bathroom stall door.

“Leave me alone! I am never coming out; I made a complete fool of myself. I tried to make a good impression but all i did was embarrass myself”, I say nearly in tears.

“Isabella, it wasn’t your fault you didn’t know who they were. You are new to this country, I’m sure they will forgive you. They seem like very down to earth lads. ” she says in a comforting tone.

“You really think so?” I say wiping the tears from my eyes.

“Yes now come out please” she says.

I step out of the stall and Jade surprises me by pulling me into a hug. We walk out together ready to face the boys. I walk out to find them standing right outside the bathroom. They had worried expressions on their faces.

“Hey are you alright? You look very pale. We were wondering where you went. You didn’t look good before” says Liam in a worried tone

“Yes I’m fine; I was just waiting for Jade to come. I was in the bathroom because I um… had to wash my hands, yeah that’s right” I give them a wary smile. “Look I am sorry, I had no idea who you were, and I must have sounded like such an idiot…”

“No, please you are not an idiot. We don’t care that you didn’t know who we were. We don’t expect everyone to know who we are and freak out around us. We are just five normal teenage lads pursuing our dream. Actually I find it quite interesting that you didn’t know who we were, you know because sometimes we don’t know if people actually are talking to us because of who we are. You know what I mean?” says Harry.

Boy do I love the way is says us like “oozz”.

“Yes what Harry said is very true. By the way thanks for the teenage lads bit” Louis jokes.

I giggle. “Well I believe you and thanks”, I smile. “Oh by the way this is my cousin Jade”.

My nerves have calmed down some but my stomach is still in knots. They politely invite me and Jade back to the table to chat. We all seemed to get on really well. At some points I forgot they were famous. Well I guess it’s easy for me since I didn’t know they were famous in the first place.

“Well it was nice chatting with you lovely ladies, but we have to get going. We have loads of press to do today.” Zayn explains.

“Oh alright, that’s fine we have to be home for lunch anyway” says Jade.

They get up to leave; they bid their goodbyes and leave. I’m standing there in shock. I thought they liked me! I thought we got along pretty well. What did I do wrong? Did they NOT like me? I thought they would at least invite me to see them again or take down my phone number. But nothing, they probably forgot about me the second they stepped out of the place.  They probably really didn’t like the fact I had no idea who they were.  Probably thought I was crazy.

We finally leave and head back home. As soon as we get home I excuse myself and immediately go upstairs and throw myself on my bed. How could I think anyone would like me? And especially pop stars?  I. am. an. Idiot.

I need to face the fact that I am a loner and I will always be a loner.  Who would want to be friends with a pregnant girl? Or even date one? No one. I have to accept it.

I just lay here and replay the happenings from today. Thinking about how much of a loser I must have looked. The tears start to stream down my face.

Then it hits me. I left my phone on the table. Oh my god. I bet they have it. I could have sworn I saw one of them take it.

 I slam my face into my pillow screaming, realizing that I might have to face them again. AHHHHH!