Aspens P.O.V
Today I break the news to jack.
Let me explain to you a little bit.
Jack and I wanted another kid because Brookley said she was getting very lonely being the only child and wished she had a sibling.
Jack and I thought, well let's try for another one. At a young age, why would you want to have 2 kids? I could ask myself the same question. We want Brookley to be as happy as possible. She says she's super happy, she just gets lonely and wishes there was another kid she could play with.
We thought, what if Johnson and Kris had a baby? She would be super lonely? They're younger then us, chances of them having a baby is 15% outta 100%
So, jack and I tried for another baby and got pregnant. We were so so so happy. Except we would have to put all of our vocational trips on hold till we had the baby.
As super excited as we were, we spend the last couple weeks trying to figure out a way to tell Brookley, knowing she would be super super excited. We finally told her the news and she couldn't be happier.
So now since you're somewhat caught up, let me tell you what happened at the doctor.
I went to the doctor for the daily checkups, ultra sounds, heart rates, my checkups, etc. I go in there and get situated and the doctor comes in. Ready to do my ultra sound as ready as I was.
He gets the ultra sound going and sees absolutely nothing. I'm confused as to why there wouldn't be nothing there. I think oh a couple weeks you wouldn't see the baby, duh.
He says he'll be back and walks out. I sit there and wait patiently. He comes back in and says he has some very sad news. He said I had a miscarriage. My heart dropped to my stomach. I got my little girl excited, my husband all ready for another baby.
I start crying right there. Hearing you have a miscarriage is super heard to hear. You never want to hear that you lost your baby. I tell him thank you and had walked out. Dreading to tell the news to jack, I kept it low for a couple days. Knowing he would also be super depressed about the whole thing.
So, here we are today. I'm about to tell jack the news and I'm super nervous. I put on some grey shorts and nice long light blue shirt, throw on some sandals and grab my shades. Jack and I are meeting at Starbucks. Knowing we live together, we like to go out and have a coffee and some breakfast sometimes.
I drive to Starbucks. I'm super nervous as to what he'll think. I know he'll be disappointed, who wouldn't be? Hearing you had a miscarriage when you tried so hard for a baby?
I pull up and see jacks car is already there. I see him sitting at a table by the window, our drinks and breakfast already at the table as well. He looks so good.
I walk in and pull out the chair next to him, then I take a seat.
"Hey baby." Jack says leaning in and kissing me.
"Hi babe." I say back smiling and I grab my coffee and start drinking.
"What's wrong? You seem upset about something?" Jack says rubbing my arm gently. God, he's gonna be so broken-hearted.
"Well, you know how I had the doctor appointment the other day?" I look at him while saying this, sipping my coffee.
"Yeah. How'd that go? What's the news on the lil baby?" He says smiling, rubbing my stomach and drinking his coffee.
"I don't know how I can say this without crying. Jack, there is no baby." I say looking down and his hand.
"What do you mean? We took all these test, they came out positive. What do you mean the baby isn't there?" Jack says looking at me with concern on his face.
"Well, the doctor was doing the ultra sound. He stopped when we both didn't see the baby. You know I just thought, since i went in early, there was barley a chance you could see it. He walked out that room so quick, then he came back, with a nurse this time. They broke the news to me, they told me I had a miscarriage. There wasn't anything I could've done to prevent that from happening." I say tearing up as I take a bite of my breakfast sandwich.
"Oh. Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Jack says and looks at me, rubbing my thigh.
"I just didn't know how I would be able to tell you. I'm still heartbroken, surely there was nothing I could've done to help. I mean, it was super early, how could it just happen like that." I keep eating and looking at jack. I can just tell by the look on his face, he's heartbroken.
"Baby. It's fine. We can always try again. Things happen for a reason. You know, maybe your body wasn't ready to carry another kid." Jack says still rubbing my thigh gently.
"That could be true. I feel super relieved now that I got that off my chest. Now we just have to tell Brookley. I'm gonna wait on that for a little." I say and look at jack.
"That's a good idea." He smiled and eats his food.
Then with that, we continue eating and talking. Forever wishing our little baby could've been here. We talked about positive things, and what we would both be doing that day.
