"Why?"

≡ "I like you"

"Jean, calm down--"
"She dumped me.."
"I know.." I looked up at him "It's upsetting, I get it. She's not worth your time. If she can't understand you or learn to understand you then why should you waste your tears over her?" I sighed and wiped away the tears under his eyes with my thumb
"Yeah, that's why I came to you."
Came to me...? What..? I don't understand... Excuse me if I'm wrong but just a second ago JJ was so upset over Isabella breaking up with him and now he's trying to be nice to me? What? Me and JJ barely ever talk and when we do it's always about..him.
"You understand me Beka, you always have. And I should have just come to you in the first place, before even going to Isabella"
I choked slightly on his words. I should have come to you before Isabella. No way, is he seriously saying what I think he's saying.
"Beka.. the reason I came to you is because you care about me. You act like you don't but deep down you do and I know it. That's what makes me like you. And I'll admit to that, I really do like you, I like you as much as I liked Isabella. I'm upset about her, yeah, but I liked you at the same time as her and you were never a plan B you were just always on my mind and I wanted to be with you over her. I just didn't know how to end it with Isabella but, when she did it for me it was more upsetting than I planned it out to be. But I got over it fast, I knew you'd cheer me up and you did" he looked down at me and smiled, a grin brighter than I'd ever seen before.
He did not just say that... no way. I think I need to pinch myself and go hide from everything and everyone. Jean-Jacques Leroy just confessed his 'undying love' for me and I'm speechless... I can't say the same back and that's why I'm speechless
"I know.. I know, I've taken the words right out of your mouth, huh? You feel the same way of course. You don't even have to say it Beka, I know it's made you speechless"
Yes.. but not in that way.. I want to tell him, I really do, but I can't. Both physically and mentally it will break him and I don't want to see that after just seeing him in a state. We may not be close but I don't want to hurt him. Me and him, in my head are not friends but for him we are and now, we are clearly more than that..
"Uh huh.."
"Knew it! Oh my god, thank you, thank you. I knew I wasn't wrong. Oh that makes me so happy"
I looked at him blankly as usual and he laughed
"Cheer up a bit Beka, smile. It looks good on you~"
I blushed slightly and looked down. Why am I embarrassed? It's not like I like him.. so I shouldn't have anything to be embarrassed for.. I guess he's sweet but he's a bit of a douche sometimes, he's quite self-centred but all the girls seem to like him and all the guys want to be like him... I'm just clearly not on the same page yet.. I should probably stop all of this before I get in too deep and make things worse, but we'll have to see where this goes.. for JJ's sake..