Rock Bottomby:myjackandsallylove

Chapter 10

Kayla's POV

The days have gone by in a blur and I'm no longer in the hospital which is a plus. Today's her funeral and I've yet to get out of bed. I haven't done much since that night and it's noticeable.  I've lost about 15 pounds from not eating unless I felt like i was going to pass out. I think my grandma has noticed but doesn't know what to say. She tried helping but my lack of responses caused her to give up. I look over to the sky and it's bright and sunny. Not to long later my door opens and reveals Amber and Alexis. Both give me looks of pity before they walk over to me and each hug me.

"We're here to help you get ready. We kind of figured you wouldn't want to be alone." Amber tells me with a small smile.

I nod and the two girls head over to my closet and pull out a simple black skater dress. Alexis goes and grabs my black converse before the two pull me out of bed and force me into the shower. Once I finish I pull on what they put together and when I come out one does my hair, the other does my make up. All the makeup is water proof because we all know the flood gates will be opened. It'll be like re-opening  a wound. 

When we arrive it's a closed casket for obvious reason's. I take a seat and each girl is one a different side of me. Soon enough people start to come and say their apologies. The rest flew by in a blur, I wasn't even able to say my whole speech. About ten words in I broke down crying and ran of stage, headed outside. Zayn never came. He's suppose to be one of my closet friends and he didn't even bother to show up, even if he didn't like Kenna he could of came to give me some much needed support. 

I didn't stop running until i was at a tree on top of a hill by the church. Once I made it to the tree I sat down and leaned against it. It's nice to have something to lean on when you feel like the whole world is on your shoulder's. Not to long later a blonde hair boy with tattoo's and piercing's sat down beside me. He didn't say anything, he simply put his arm around me and pulled me into his side. Not to long later all of mine and Kenna's shared friends are sitting by us. By all I mean: Colten, Amber, Alexis, Riley, Chloe, Jasmine,Brandon, Harry, Louis, Damien, Duke, Savannah, and Liam. Yes, Liam came all the way from Ireland for this. 

We all just kind of sit there using each other as support to keep ourselves from falling apart. As we sit here I notice along with Zayn neither Carrigan or Hailey showed up. I really need to cut them from my life. We aren't sitting here much longer when people begin to leave the church and we're told it's time to go to the graveyard. The ride to is silent and Colten rides with my grandma and I. When we get there the walk to where her casket will be buried is a short one. The preacher say's a few words and the three of us drop white roses on her casket. They start to lower it and I feel tears start to fall fast down my face. I look over to Colten and he looks back at me. Seeing the tears on his face cause me to break, Colten may be just as heart broken as me. A loud sob escapes my mouth and Niall rushes over and catches me as my legs give out. Sobs leave my mouth and it all comes down on me. That's my twin sister, my other half, being put into the ground. My best friend is dead and there's nothing I can do to fix it. I can't change it. 

She's gone and she isn't coming back. Nothing I will ever do can fix what has happened. I will never see my sister again all because someone hit our car. She's always held me together and she isn't here. What am I suppose to do now? She's too young to be gone. Kenna was too young to die! This can't be happening. This can't be happening. Someone please tell me this is just some messed up dream I can't seem to wake up from. Someone tell me I didn't see her burn to death inside our car. Someone tell me she isn't gone or she's going to walk through my front door in the morning. Kenna didn't deserve this! Kenna didn't deserve to die, she may not have been perfect but she didn't deserve this! No one deserves to die so young. This just can't be happening, this has to be a dream! It has to be! 

Another sob comes from my mouth as her casket keeps lowering into the ground. I begin to shake my head, trying to wake up from this sick dream. This can't be reality. Kenna can not be dead! More sobs fill the silence as I slowly become undone as I watch the burial unfold before me. How can this be happening? Kenna was suppose to get married, have kids, grow old, this isn't suppose to happen. Soon Niall begins to pull me away from the scene and i begin to fight to stay. Everyone else is leaving and getting into their cars. I keep fighting, as the cars begin to drive away, to stay. He holds me close and tries to keep a hold of me as the only car left is his, the only people are us. 

"No I can't leave her! I can't just leave her!" I scream as he tries to pull me back.  

"Let go of me! Let me go! I'm not leaving her!" I scream through my tear's.

"Kayla, she's gone and we need to go." Niall tells me softly.

"No! I am not leaving her!" I scream again.

His grip on me tightens stopping me from moving.

"Let me go! I  can't leave her, I can't just leave her!" I yell while pounding on his chest, trying to escape his tight grip.

"Kayla, Kayla shh. It's okay Kayla. It'll all be okay." Niall says while holding on. 

As I begin to calm down he moves his arms so they're around my shoulders. I lay my head on his shoulder and slip my arms around his waist as I cry. We stay like that until all my tears are gone. I don't know how long we stood there but what I do know is he didn't let go once, until all the tears where gone and I calmed down. 

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Wow. I cried while writing this chapter. Alot of this chapter is my feelings. My friend died two years ago right before her 15th birthday. The guy she was dating killed her and as you can probably tell it's still a very fresh wound for me.