My Thoughts

January

I always think and get confused about what to do and what not to do, what is bad and what is good? What should I do and What must I do? The answer is that it doesn't matter what is good and what is bad because whatever I do good or bad has both good and bad aspects and impacts, the effect that the person judging me choose will make what I do good or bad. Thus I should always do what I want and think is right to do.

I wonder if I should hate some people or learn to accept them. As every person has a good and bad quality, it really depends on myself if I see good in him or bad. The problem with the society is that they if see something bad in a person then they only see the more worse qualities but if the good comes into their mind first they all praise the better qualities. Thinking about this the world war surely had many bad impacts but it still reminds people of the disastrous effects of the war rendering them to keep it aside for as long as possible if the disputes occur. Think about it for a second, If the world war had not been occured while still developing the nuclear weapons and instead it occured after every country became a nuclear power nations then there wouldn't be any past examples of the catastrophes it can bring and the small dispute between any two nation would be then the end of all humankind.

I don't think that I'm enough knowledgeable to say that I'm a scientist but I sure as hell love to be one. The only problem with that is that I like to imagine stuff rather than calculate the mathematics for it. I love science as it is the basics to the universe that I live in. It is like the universe is my home and the different aspect of science is like the furniture in that home, If I don't know about the stuff of my own house then how could I be more of an Ignorant of a person. And how could I ever see or face the neighbours.

I always dream of many things but the paticularly one that I love is to roam freely in that open and vast space with nothing but my body and just jump out of the gravitational effect of the earth and just be as free as possible. Going towards the outer solar system leaving the earth and seeing mars on the way, the red planet in all it's glory then through the astroid belt watching them flying and hitting each other as they go around the sun. Then after some freely flying through the space, encounter the biggest planet Jupiter, the enormous size of this planet just baffles me, the great red spot and the 60 moons around this planet is just the sight to see but moving father out we have the crown jewel of our solar system, Saturn. It's rings are so beautiful like the ring on a newly wedded girl but it's auroras are a sight to see. Going around both the planets Jupiter and Saturn, I have never felt any shorter. Going further out we have a sky blue coloured planet Uranus which just feels like the sky on a beautiful day. The next and the last planet is the Jem of our solar system, the deep blue pearl like the one on Titanic that Rose has in a necklace. It's name is Neptune.

From the early age I always thought of being Immortal. Firstly I prayed to the only thing that can make me, the Gods, but as I grew up I started thinking of the scientific ways to keep myself alive for eternity. The stuff of science was so exciting, it promised ways even if one, was better than just praying. I came across the special theory of relativity of Einstein, which tells that as something approces the speed of light the time slows down for the person. That stuff was the ultimate gong to my ears, that's what I've been looking all along, all I have to do is build a shoes that will make me go at the speed of light and I'll live forever. I was so naive back then, the cartoons and my childish brain were combining together the most imaginative impossible dream as possible. Now that I think about it, I laugh to the core because even if I made such shoes and even if I travelled near the speed of light, I would live my life with normal span because my time will be slow but relative to the non light speed shoes wearing common people.

I also was facinated by time travel, since the early age. The ability to go into the past snd correct something that went bad would be so cool. I would just correct all the mistakes I made in the pursuit of academics, family and love. But it was not too long since I realized that correcting something in the past might lead to some other consequences which may be the cause of my death or failure in future. The mistake that I've been trying to correct prevented that incident and that's why I'm alive right now. This thing which I later found is known as the butterfly effect.