My Dangerous Love

Chapter Four

                                                             ~Chapter 4~

I slammed my car door closed as I walked up the driveway and pulled out my keys, fumbling to find the key to my mother's house.After finding the key, I shoved the key into the key lock unlocking the door and opening it.I stomped in and slammed the door behind me.I put my back up against he door leaning my head on the door.

Why am I so worked up over the guy?

'Maybe because you like him, and wanted him to kiss you'  my inner voice said.

Do I like him back?

'Well, ofcourse you like him back. you stupidly thought he was going to kiss you and wanted it' my inner voice annoyingly stated.

I groaned and ran a hand through my hair.I heard someone clear their throat.I opened my eyes and saw my mother standing a few steps away from me, looking at me with a confused expression.I sighed and shook my head.I walked towards her.I wrapped my arms around her tightly.She hugged me back.Few seconds later, we pulled away.

"I'm Sorry" 

The words shot out of my mouth without me thinking it over.

She furrowed her eyebrows.

"For what sweety?" SHe asked, while grabbing my hand in both of hers.

"I never ever visit you, and I'm the reason we don't have a good relationship now," I said looking down at our hands.

"Oh sweety," My mom said softly rubbing my hair out of my face and putting her hands at the side of my face and kissing my forehead.I smiled and walked into the kitchen and began helping her prepare dinner.

Hours later, We are seating at the table enveloped in a comfortable silence.I took a bite of my chicken while taking a look out of the diningroom window.I looked at the beautiful white victorian house with the beautiful pickett fence.I began to think of the possiblities of my future.

Would I have the perfect family? With the perfect house?

I began to fantasize about Alex, and if that would be me and him in the future.I started picturing a life full of happiness.Two beautiful biracial kids running in the backyard.Alex coming home from work and giving me a kiss on the cheek as he greeted me.

"Stella! Earth to stella!"

I snapped out of my day dream and looked at my mom who was looking at me with confusion. I shook my head and felt my face grow hot from embarrassment.

"Sorry mom, I zoned out for a second there," I said looking down at my now empty plate.

"Hmm I wonder why?" My mom said to herself.She stood up and grabbed our empty plates and put them in the sink to wash.I looked at my phone and nearly screamed when i saw that alex had texted me 30 minutes ago.I tried composing myself as I stood up from the table.

"I need to go lay down, im tried," I said to my mom before darting up the stairs.

"Alright," she yelled up to me from the kitchen.

I run into my room and close my door.I look around and see nothing had changed in my old preteen room.I smile once I saw my shelf full of my old middle school track trophies.I look around and start to unpack my bag.I set my clothes in the dresser.I grab my phone and look at Alex's text.

Alex: Hello beautiful.

I blush has soon as I read the word beautiful.

Gosh the things he made me feel is just remarkable.

I quickly texted him back.

Stella: Hey

Great! It didnt seem too desperate but it seems more mysterious.Like he would wonder if I was eager or not to text him. 

Way to go stella!

I set my phone on my bed and paced back and forth with my arms crossed.I had to force myself from biting on my nails due to me being anxious for his reply.I decided that I would go take a shower and occupy myself.I walk into the bathroom and close the door behind me.I pull off my clothes and turn on the shower water. As the shower warms up, I rinse off my eye make up.I rinsed off my face and turn to get into the shower. I step into the shower and let myself get drenched in the warm water.I sigh out as my body relaxes.I let the water run over my hair and lose myself in the fantasies of being with Alex.

An hour later, I step out of the shower and wrap my towel around my body.I brush my hair into a bun and wipe the fog off the mirror and stare at my reflection. I look at myself as I take in my features.I didn't agree sometimes when people said I was beautiful.I was extremely insecure.Something no one knew about me. A lot of people didn't know the true me. I didn't let that many people figure me out.I stayed with my friends and never really let people hang out with me.I walk out of the bathroom and into my room. I grab my phone and check my messages.

Alex: Meet me tonight, i'll pick you up. Party time ;)

Stella: Alright.

Looks like I would be with him tonight. Was this a date? I felt my heart beat quicken.Suddenly I couldn't wait for tonight. I couldnt wait to be with Alex. 

I just can't wait to start over.

I smiled and started planning my clothes.

~End of Chapter~

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