Not Just a Meme (weirdest vent ever?)

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Yeah, so this probably sounds stupid,

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Yeah, so this probably sounds stupid,

But I honestly hate being referred to as "the meme friend" or "a living meme" by most of the people I know. Yes, I do try and help people laugh, and I do a bunch a lovely "meme" stuff, but when people label me with that, it feels as though that's all I am to them. Not someone who helps them through something, just someone they laugh with, or at. Sort of like how if people label me "autistic" (even if I am, technically speaking), it makes me feel as though they only view me that way, or only view me for my diagnosis.

I've put way more time, care and passion into my advice for people than the stupid jokes I make or pickup lines I spam, or videos I link. I don't wanna be known for the childish things, and I feel as though it overshadows who I actually am sometimes.

I already don't have much confidence in myself as a friend, and I always feel like I'm the second person on line, always the third wheel, or not even there entirely. I feel like no one cares about me equally as much as I do for them, and I envy best friends, and even lovers. It's not that great.

I guess I've got my childhood "best friend" to blame for that lack of confidence...but I don't blame them for not liking me much. I'm too clingy.

Anyways, I don't just want to be a meme, because I feel as though that makes me seem less important, as a friend.
Sure, I can be there to help you laugh, but when it comes down to it, I want to help with more than just that, and I don't want to be viewed in that one light.
When it comes down to it, the people you care about the most are the ones who have helped you the most, in all honesty...and I feel like calling me that just completely washes that away.

It's stupid sounding to say...but please don't only think of me like that.

On another note, Skittles's hole in his back is looking better.

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