Forever, my hayaat

II

Now that i am in senior year, I studied a lot because I want to achieve good grades later.

As im flipping through pages of the Chemistry book, Adam who is sitting beside me suddenly spoke.

"Hey, happymeal."

"What?" Im still focused on the book.

"I want to tell you about something...." he said.

I looked up immediately only to find he is blushing. What the. He never stutters.

"Okay, so tell me. Don't worry I will not laugh." I said, while giving him a wink.

"Okay, so you know Aaliyah?"

"Yea?"

I am....actualky afraid tho. He never talks about girls.

"I........," he hesitates but continues,"I think I like her."

That sentence killed me.

I wore on a fake smile. Why?

"That's um...congrats bro! So? What are you going to do?" I asked with fake enthusiasm.

I know I shouldn't carry on with this conversation, but he looks so happy when he mentioned his name.

"So...Im actually planning on telling about her to my family...."

"yeah?"

"And if they agree, I....."

He stops for a while. And he blushes hard. Makes me want to cry and laugh at the same time.

"Im going to propose her on the graduation day," and that's it.

I want to cry. I badly want to cry. Damn you cheapskate.

"I 'm so happy for you! Awww, who knows you are madly in love with her! I'll support you." I said without realising what the fudge did i just said.

I smiled. Giving him the most FAKE smile I ever have, my entire life. And he bought it.

His face enlighten at my words. "Wow I didin't expect you to be this nice," he said while hugging for two, good seconds.

I smiled only to be coughing when I forced my tears inside.

If that makes you happy.

On the graduation day

We hide behind a tree. Aaliyah is waiting, she's in front of us, looking for someone....Adam who has called her here.

I turned to Adam. He looks nervous.

I hold his shoulders firmly and said,

"Okay, do your best, don't freak out, Just do what you are supposed to and in the blink of an eye, she's yours. Got it?"

He nodded. And suddenly he look at me.

I did the same.

"Do you remember when we were 7, your gold fish went missing, up until now?" Adam asked, breaking the silent we created just now.

I nodded, refused to speak afraid that my tears will pull down a river.

He gave me the sweetest smile ever. "It's me who killed it, accidentally."

What?! I gave him a death glare.

8 years ago

I went up my room only to find my window is wide open and Mr Didi is gone. I went downstairs with his bowlfish, running towards mom with tears in my eyes. My mom console me in a hug and said everything's okay.
I just bought him recently and now it's gone. I love Mr didi with all my heart, and now he's gone. I stayed in my room for two good weeks, I even ignored Adam when he came. Im okay by then. But I never keep another pet afterwards, up until now. It's still a mystery for me, as how he left without any trace.

We both laugh at our childhood's memories, and stopped, looking at each other. He then mouthed 'thank you' and took a deep breath. And off he went to Aaliyah. I watched him kneeling towards her, a box of ring in his hand, offering to Aaliyah, who is now smiling while tearing, shut her mouth with her hands.

And slowly said, yes.

Adam jumped of joy and look at me Who is already crying and smiling. They are tears of joy, sadness, joy and sadness.

I smiled at them, ignoring the pain that is in my heart.

The day Adam and Aaliyah got married

It's time for the the newlyweds to go to their new home, and start a new life, savouring every moment of their lives until the end. They looked at each other with smiles plaster on their shining face. I never saw Adam looked so happy. Something inside me burned me.

He's going, no more stupid jokes, no more happymeal, no more happy moments. I bite my lower lips to avoid from crying. Choking on my own tears that no one ever realized, I followed them to their car and bid farewell.

"Goodbye, brat. Take care of Aaliyah, I don't understand how you come to like him ever since we're in tenth grade." I shake my head jokingly at Aaliyah who is chuckling. Yup people, that's right. Aaliyah had feelings for him since forever, and they really deserved each other.

Adam glared at me and look at me for some time. There is sadness in his eyes.

"Goodbye, happymeal," I missed hearing him calling me that. I choked on my tears. "I will miss you, little sis."

"Bye," I said, and Adam give me one last, sad look and took off.

I'm on the ground. Crying. Letting it go, all of them. My lips quivered.My face is wet. You hear that? I am only a sister to him. A sister. Which broke me the complete outmost.

I get up, a bit wobbled from all the crying. I finally stopped crying. I breathed in. I smiled.

Maybe Im destined with someone better. Dont be sad, the life is awaiting!
I ll just move on and look forward.

There are three words i've been dying to say to you. But i guess it doesn't matter now.

I smiled while wiping away my tears.

~end