To go to another world
To change my mindset
And bring me here
Where it's hard to find the thing I'm looking for
Without losing my mind
These are the chemicals that wound my soul
Twisting
Pushing away these thoughts interpreted by the world that I see through my eyes
Through my eyes only do I see the horrors that lay before humanity
These are the things that take away everything
Although the pain is gone there's nothing to replace it.
My whole being screams to be
Be here
Be there
Everywhere it could be
Doing anything it could do
Searching for every possibility that the world holds for it
I am absent in my own life
I am an empty shell
Void of emotion and sense
Dangerous thoughts linger in my skull
Thrumming into the edges
Rebounding
Resounding
Ricocheting off the bone
Denting the marrow
The sound is haunting my mind
Never ending until that one thing is taken and ruins everything
These are the colours that are hard to remember
Violent
Calm
Repetitive
Racing through induced dreams
Nightmares fade into memories
And memories into nightmares
The vibrancy that the world used to hold close has been stolen by the menace of humanity.
These are the pills,
That we give ourselves to burn out the darkness
Instead they take away emotions,
Leaving us to stare out windows
Walk aimlessly until we are lost in structures of skin and bones
Lose the ones we love because the love has been suffocated out of our lives.
We give ourselves these things and call it medication
The solution to the problem
But instead they trample over us, stomping
Crushing
Leaving only another problem in its wake.
These are the pills
That cause harm to my soul
Takes away my thoughts and emotions and life
They are the destroyers
However there is beauty to destruction
Destruction allows you to heal,
To recreate
It gives opportunity to rebirth
They are the black of pain
The absence of all emotion
And I continue to swallow,
To take them into this body
Because however superficial it feels to be caught in this momentary state,
We all will inevitably die and leave this place but wherever we go
Pain will continue to outlast our lives.
With theses pills I can escape, if only for a moment, I can't feel.
DU LIEST GERADE
Broken minds
PoetryPoetry. Basically. "I lay awake at night The blistering silence pressing; Consuming me. Left to contemplate every thing that I've done wrong" Some may be in my other book but here is just for poetry, or something that resembles it. DISCLAIMER: so...
