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Suicide

Song : Suicide

Artist: Clariyah

Lyrics:

I am a person of survival

But growing up, that was not really my title

A dead soul who was screaming for revival

A young girl who became suicidal

I felt the hits and the kicks of society

Probably the reason why I suffer from anxiety

I was never in the form of perfection

So I became the best example of neglection

They called me names from fat bitch to white trash

To other shit I won't say, it's that bad

They called me up and would always need back up

Call me a slut and say my family was jacked up

Death threats every time I logged in

Always on some other shit, damn here we go again

I was already alone, now I am looking for a friend

Got no friends so here I am wishing it would end

And it didn't, it never did, was always something

Every time I felt good, they would remind me I was nothing

Every time I was down they couldn't help themselves but kick me

It tore me apart, took all the fight I had left in me

I had enough, I was so fucking done

I couldn't face all the drama so I decided to run

But you can't run forever, eventually you'll get tired

So I just stared at the rope, wishing my life would expire

I mean fuck it, if I am really nothing

Then nobody would stop me from taking that rope and jumping

So I took it, tied it around my little throat and proceeded to jump

When my mom bust in the door, I didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to say

I saw the tears in her eyes, I felt the pain go away

How could I be so selfish, how could I think I am nothing?

When the person who gave me life obviously thought I was something

Now I pray, pray for the people who never saw the light

Pray for the people who still cry at night

And those people will think of my words like protection

Think of them as the light when you fight depression

Cos I know what it's like, I been there before

But for every close room, I'm here to open a door, I'm here to open a door

"Don't."
#LoveMyself #LoveYourself