He's my fiancé but yet I'm the third wheel I always feel this way you have more in common with her you work all day almost then come home and I'm alone just like when your gone what else is new I should be use to it my head is filled with cutting and suicide you never wanna make love to me anymore it's like I'm just slowly disappearing like I don't matter anymore I mean I guess I don't I just wanna disappear for good and never come back I feel like shit everyday and all I want is to be held but that doesn't happen anymore I'm just I just want to be done I don't want to get out of bed in the morning I don't wanna leave my bed I don't want to talk shower see people I just wanna waste away please just let me die it feels like I'm already there I don't feel like I'm living I feel like I'm just a body wondering around and I don't scream for help I don't beg for someone to see my pain I just lock it up and hopefully ill be gone soon they talk about everything we talk about nothing why do I even exists anymore I don't wanna do it anymore just wanna slit my wrists and watch the blood flow down while I fade away
