Darkness sails accross my mind...
It's like crossing a never ending ocean...
Waves of thoughts crash around
Like watering crashing against rocks...
Will I ever be able to feel normal?
Will I ever be able to feel at all?
I don't know and have no way of telling...
All I feel is never ending thoughts
Thoughts of what will happen to my world
Thoughts of what will happen to my life
Thoughts that provoke my emotions and drive me crazy...
They make me want to pull my hair out
And make me want to bang my head on a wall...
They make me want to numb this pain
I want to know what to do at all
But I can't find my way
I want to be free, I want to be loved, I want someone to love.....
I want to be done......
I don't know whether I should use my heart or my head
Decisions float around my brain just above arms length
They're out of my grasp....
I don't know which to choose
So it's hard to tell if it's a blessing or a curse.....
Either way, I feel it will all come out to failure....
I fail either way
I get pushed down either way
I don't know which way is up or down
I can't see with this darkness clouding my mind!!......
Help me from this darkness....
Save me from this pain....
I can't choose what I should do
Because it will all end up in vain...
