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Hitachiin Kaoru OS

My footsteps were louder than I had expected them to be as I ran through the hallway, away from that monster called Hiitachin Kaoru. "Bella wait!" was what he shouted while chasing me. "Leave me alone! Stop running after me, you already did enough..." tears running down my face. I ran as fast as I could but he was faster. To be honest I didn't expect less from him.

"I love you Bella and you know that, right?" he sad with a despered tone. "Yes..." I looked away. I wouldn't dare looking at him. "Look at me, Bella" he asked. "No" I answerd. "Look at me" he said while lifting my face with is fingers. "I won't look at you, sweetheart" saying that hurt but I had to. "You are indeed special" was what he had just admited. "No, I'm not. At least not in the way you think". "Possible, but for me you ARE special and I won't stop saying this until you belive me!" he sad, his voice going louder.

I took a step back, away from him. I was about to run away again as he forced me into a kiss, pushing me against the wall. "Why did you do that, honey?" my voice started shaking. He did not answer but kissed me again. This time deeper and not as forced as the first one. "What is your goal with this?" I questiond his second kiss and expected a third one. But he only stared into my eyes.

"Bella, I want you" he sad after a while. "But you're not going to get me. Not if you don't stop"
He kissed my cheek down to my neck as I pushed him away. "Stop it" I begged. "But you like it, don't you?" he said with a devilish grin and eyes so sad. "Not when you do it and especially not now" I explained.

"What do you want then?" he asked disapointed. Clearly he wanted to go further. "I want you to leave me alone and never ever talk to me again" I said, trying to stay calm. He backed off "I miss you". "I miss you, too" I started "but I don't want you" "Bella...". I started crying again and walked away, followed by Kaoru. "I don't understand" he said. "I'm scared and that's all! Go away!" I shouted at him.

He was faster, again. A hug from behinde, pulling me to the ground. "As I said, I want you and I'm going to get you, Bella" he picking me up and brought me into another room. We weren't in the hallway anymore and he locked the doores. Running is no option. "I don't want" I mumbeled. "What?" he asked.

"Why did you lock the doors, Kaoru? Your not going to do something to me, right?" He smilied softly "Nothing that will hurt you" He sat me on a nearby bed. "Are we in the nurse-office?" I asked. "Yes" answered the boy as he pushed me down. "Don't do that" I whispered. "I wouldn't dear thinking of it, trust me. Only once more. Please." his sad voice echoed trough the room. He laid behinde me, hughing me all of the sudden. "What are you doing?" I wonderd. "Did you think I would really do that?" he replaid laughing a little.

I coud feel his warm breath in my neck. It's only a couple houres, since I felt him so near. But than he had to do that. That one thing he promised to never do. "You smell good" he stated. "Thank you" I said, trying to enjoy the silence.
"So..." I begun "what now?" "We're just going to lay here. Or is it uncomfortable?" he whispered trough my hair. "Well, yes. You just broke my heart, remember? That's why I ran away in the first place." I explained, remebering the horrible moment. "I can explain that" is what he said befor holding my tighter. "Is that so?" my voice was deinteressted and I'm sure he heard that. "I guess you don't want me to explain...". I felt like he talked more to himslef than to me.

"I want to trust you again, Kaoru" I let him know "But... I can't." Than he let go of me and I stood up. "You're gonna leave now?" "Propably..." "Here are the keys to unlook the doors" he pointet to a nearby table. "Thank you" I said. Even tho he broke my heart I still have to be polite, right? "Will you come to the Host Club again?" Kaoru wanted to know. "Yes, but I will prefer to switch Host" I made clear

"Goodbye" turning around to him, looking directly into his disappointed eyes. "You look like you're about to cry, but without those eyedrops" I applauded quietly. "Maybe I am" he defenitly was serious. I walked a bit but turned around again "You know, Kaoru, ..." he looked at me. Was that hope in his eyes? "You could have just apologized." He looked confused "Wha... ?" "I never said that I didn't want to be a friend of yours anymore...!" I began "B-But you just kept going on and on and.." My voice started shaking. No! Don't cry now, Bella!

"Now you're the one who's about to cry, Bellabu-" he cut his sentecse of and looked to the ground with a sad smile. "Well, maybe I am." still trying to hide my tears. "... Sorry." He said. Sorry.... Sorry.... Sorry? Sorry! He said... Sorry! My eyes widend. But there's nothing special about sorry! Why am I so happy than?
Than he hugged me! It was warm and felt good. Was a "sorry" realy all it took? Am I that week?

I couldn't hold my self anymore and hugged him back, shouting "I hate you, Kaoru! I really do!" But what else was I supposed to do? I knew that I still loved him but also hated him for what he had done. Even if he had apologized for his crime, I could never look at him the same way ever again. And he knew it.

I love you...

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Hooo boi, it has been a long time since I wrote this. Like a LOOOOONG TIME. And it makes me cringe. But I kinda want to post this? Hope it makes you cringe too? Or feel other emotions maybe?
I was proud of this back than but now eh not so much, anyways I didn't bother correcting any mistakes because I don't want to read it ╮(─▽─)╭

~Kuma_Adi