Life upside down

I'm sorry, not

Today i didn't want to go all out with my outfit so i just put on a plain black shirt, black ripped jeans, blue jean jacket, and black convers.

For makeup a simple eyeliner, mascara, and clear lipgloss. I put on my white nikes hat and grabbed my sunglasses then left.

I was getting tired of blood bags so i decide i would go out tonight and get some real food. Once i got to school i ignored everyone and went straight inside.

I wasnt feeling so well by drinking blood bags all the times so i was angry. I got in class and listened to music i could feel eyes on me but i didn't pay attention.

"Awwww is the big bad wolf mad," Miley said.

My eyes grew dark red in anger but i didn't do anything cause they will see the real me so i just held the desk tightly.

I senses someone about to touch me but before they can i grabbed their hand hard and turned to look at them.

"Dont touch me," I growled at Miley

I look at Miley and she said, "Your eyes are red."

I turned away from her and said, "No there not there just red from scratching."

I got up and left to the girls bathroon i was getting really thirsty. I ripped the bag open and drank from it but didn't like it so i threw it.

I cleaned up the mess and left back to my class room before i could get in trouble. I looked class looking at all you young blood in front if me and it drove me crazy.

Once class was over i had just gotten my books and heading to class when i was pulled in a closet.

"What the hell."

The light turned on to reveal nathaniel. "I saw what happened in class and i don't think you should come to school anymore."

"You think just because your my blood mate you have the right to tell me what i should and shouldn't but you don't own me, if i want to stay in school i will. I am learning how to control myself its just hard but overall i have been doing very well so do me the favor and live me the hell alone."

I was about to walk away before he grabbed my arm and said, "Please you could have killed someone and i don't want you to get hurt. I know the moment you kill right after you feel so much guilt that you will shut of your feeling fast. When you shut off your feelings you will turn heartless and i just cant deal with that."

I put my head down knowing what he was saying was true. The first time i killed i did feel so much guilt and i was thinking about turning off my feelings but i didn't but if i do kill again i just might. Just thinking about him killing himself was the worst feeling and i wont let it happen.

"Thank you for caring about me but I'm still going to school because i have friends that are going to help me control myself. I don't want you to die i want to be with you but for now i need to get my life straight before i can mate and be with you. I got to go to class but please don't worry about me i will be fine."

I kissed him on the cheek before heading to class but i felt weird that someone actually cares for me. All day i could feel Nathaniel staring at me but i didn't look back at him.

When school finished i went straight home cause I'm craving blood. The bad thing about seeing red all the time is that you don't get to see the beautiful blue skies above to calm you down.

When i got to my apartment i ran to the fridge and saw that i had nothing there. I ran in vampire speed everywhere looking for a blood bag but there was none.