There Was A Time -DeanXCas

Chapter 13 - Stay.

It's been two days since the wedding and Cas and I have been alone, I'm thinking about buying a house so I don't interrupt the newly weds. I'm nervous to bring up the topic to Cas and Sammy. Sammy has always been so supportive of me and I just want to repay him for everything he has done for me. It'd be easier for him and Jess if I got my own place. I know Cas will support me and be more than happy to house hunt with me but part of me feels like i am forcing an apple pie and white picket fence lifestyle on him.

I was so deep in thought I almost didn't hear the phone go off. Cas lightly shook me to try and regain my attention. I looked down at the caller I.D. and choked. I hadn't heard from him in years, I just assumed he died. I can't answer the phone now. He'd hate me, I mean what father wants to hear his oldest, strongest boy is an omega to a supernatural creature. I am currently having a 'thank god Cas can't read my mind' moment. I mean Cas is my everything how can I say that when we just met? but there is just some things he shouldn't know for the better. My thoughts were racing, I could barely form a basic sentence. I finally gained enough courage to slide the answer bar.

"........Um. Hey Dad"

"Hey Dean. Good to hear your voice again son."

"Same to you Sam and I couldn't stop worrying. You wouldn't call or text. You disappeared off the face of the earth."

"As I always tell you Dean everything I do is for your safety.."

For the first time in a long time Dean felt like he could tell his father anything. He knew not to trust that feeling though. Last time he did his father kicked him out of the house and Dean had to sleep outside all night.

"Boy, are you even listening to me?"

" Of course I am Dad."

"Okay good, I found a hunt down in Melville, NY"

"I am actually near there."

"Good 'cause i need you and Sammy to check it out."

"Sammy is gone at the moment."

"WHERE THE HELL IS HE DEAN?!?"

"Dad calm down he's in florida on his honeymoon."

"Honeymoon? Since when was he married?"

"Since like 2 maybe 3 days ago"

"With who that Jessica brat?"

"Jessica is amazing Dad, Sammy is finally happy and she supports the hunting."

"SHE KNOWS??!?"

"Of course she does Dad, Sammy's been having vision like nightmares about her dying just like......"

"Don't you dare finish that sentence Dean."

"I know dad I wasn't going to"

"Speaking of Partners have you found your Soul Mate yet."

"Yeah I have Dad..." I know how the conversation is going to end and it's not going to be pretty

"Well Dean-o who is the lucky omega?"

"Well dad here's the thing.... I am the Omega..."

"I DIDN'T RAISE MY SON TO BE SOME WEAK ASS OMEGA!!!!!!!"

**Beep,Beep,Beep**

"DEAN? Dean are you okay? What's Happening"

At this point my breath is shorting out and I can't seem to form the proper words needed to explain what's happening. I haven't felt heavy feeling since last hunt I was on with sam almost 7 years ago. I can't believe this is happening to me. I am starting to feel light headed and I can see black spots in my vision from lack of oxygen. I feel Cas put two fingers on my head and my vision slowly return back to normal. My heart race slows back to a normal pace and I am no longer struggling to catch my breath. Suddenly I feel extremely tired and all I can do is think about how much I am disappointing Cas. I don't deserve someone as thoughtful and caring as him. I am weak, broken and most of all dysfunctional. For the first time in a long time I felt worthless, helpless and most of all I felt humiliated. Cas seemed to notice my sudden change of mood. He instantly seemed to know what I was thinking as if he was reading my mind but I knew Cas better than that he wouldn't disregard my wishes without asking me first.
"Dean don't blame yourself."
"How can I not? My father just yelled at me about becoming an Omega."
"Exactly Dean you can't beat yourself up over a fate that rests over your head."
"I hate disappointing him. But that's all I can seem to do."
"Everyone has someone that they idolize and they don't want to disappoint. The sad truth is some people don't deserve to be idolized."
"Cas he's my dad. I've always listened to everything he's ever said, I've followed every order he has barked my way and the thing he gets mad about is a decision I didn't even have a part in making. "
"Dean I wish I knew how to make you feel better."
"Then please stay...."
"Until you tell me otherwise. I will ALWAYS be by your side."
"All I want to do is show him that I am not weak. Even being an omega I have learned how to balance you and hunting at the same time. I knew he'd react this way. He always throws a fit when he doesn't get his way. I've done everything I can to please him. He's on his own now."
"Dean, I get you're upset but I promise you will never forgive yourself if you give up on him now."
"What should I do Cas?"
"Forget about what happened and do what you do best,hunt like your family depends on it."
"Thanks for always being there for me Cas."
"I will do anything for you Dean."
"Cas, do you remember when I asked you if you wouldn't read my mind?"
"Yes."
"Well, over the past month or so I've realized how much I care about you and how much I wish I could tell you some of the hardest parts of my past. That's one of the reasons I don't want you to read my mind. I know you would never leave me but I want to be the one to tell you. I don't want you to be scanning through my brain and be confused about memories that will pop up that you don't understand."
"I would love to hear about some of the darkest parts of your life Dean. My only concern is most of your life I have been watching you. I know mostly everything about you."
"Well then you can hear the stories from a new perspective."
"Okay."
" when I was about 4 my dad come into my room waking me up from a massive fire saying 'RUN! Take Sammy and never look back' little did he realize I looked back and saw the most terrifying and scarring image that still haunts me to this day. Ever since then I have listened to ever work my father has ever said. It became very clear to me in that moment that he knew exactly what he was talking about and I wasn't about to turn on the truth."
"I never realized that I guess I was too busy focused on what Azazel was doing to your mom and Sam that I didn't even realize you saw that much."
"The memory of her is what keeps me hunting. She was the one who helped me get through the day before you came asking. I guess I never realized how much memories can affect a persons life even 20 years later."
"She would've been proud of you Dean."
"Do you think she's in heaven?"
"No. I know she's in heaven. I was watching when she entered heavens doors with no problems."
"You'll see her again, Dean, I promise"