We finished watching Harry Potter and Fifty Shades Darker was coming on next so I made the effort to stay up because I love that movie. Chance looked sort of uncomfortable watching the sex scenes. I'd look at him out the corner of my eye and he was so cute. Lord what I'd do to him. I caught him looking at me a few times. This movie was really putting me in the mood but we just made it official yesterday. I didn't want him to think I was easy I mean this would be my first time and my first boyfriend ever. I told him I was getting sleepy and I could sleep on the couch tonight so he could sleep in my bed. I didn't want him sleeping on that couch again. He said he was fine on the couch. I stayed up for another 15 minutes but I just ended up half way sleep. I felt chance pick me up. He looked me in my eyes and said "God You're so beautiful". I said sleep in my bed with me. I usually sleep with just a shirt on but I put on real night clothes tonight. I couldn't sleep at all though. He smelled so good! I watched him take his pants off and get in my bed. He caught me staring and smirked.
C: Wassup?
A: I wasn't staring if that's what you think
C: Nope. I didn't say that. You did baby.
A: An-nyway um I can't sleep now.
C: Wanna talk or watch tv?
A: It doesn't matter.
C: Well I do want to ask you something. Um.. Have you ever had sex before?
A: No. It never really crossed my mind yet.
C: Oh ok.
A: Yea. Does that change anything with us?
C: No not at all. It makes it more special now.
I felt a little bold tonight so I wrapped my leg around Chance and kissed him goodnight. I started to fall asleep but Chance was still on my mind. I dreamed about how he would feel in me. I woke up after a hour and watched Chance sleep. I couldn't help my thoughts. They were everywhere.
