The World In Our Hands (Sherlolly/John Mary)

Realize (Chapter 6)

SHERLOCK

I could see John was thinking but I could not tell what about as I sat there I was exhausted I really wanted to fall asleep but could not knowing there would be horrible things haunting my dreams. I knew as soon as I walked in to 221b I would be haunted by her.

Then with a much softer tone John spoke.

"I will stay on me old room if t would help."

"It won't help I need some one sleeping next to me"

John sighs and We then went to 221b and as soon as we made are way up the stairs I broke down crying not even saying a word John dragged me up stairs he told me to go take a shower and clean up.

I slowly showered the hot water helped bring the feeling back to my skin and muscles. For I had been numb with the sadness I started to realize I was very dehydrated for all the crying had taken a huge toll on my body there could not be any more tears left or water.

As I shaved the stubble off my face I realized I had basically given up and Molly would never have wanted that to happen. I need to be strong for her. I realized I had not eaten anything in six days and have not slept in six days. I had also not seen Hamish for four days. What I saw when I looked in the mirror I saw a weak emotional mess. Sediment. How could I have let my self do this?

"From now on I will not cry. I will not let my self go. I will not let sediment get the best of me."

I whispered to my self.

JOHN

While Sherlock was getting cleaned up I made some food and tea I sat down and waited I texted Mary telling her I would not be home tonight. When Sherlock finally emerged from the bathroom and he already looked much better he sat down and ate everything I made I even made more he ate every last bit.

"Are you going to be alright if I leave?"

His look was a kinda panicky look but he quickly turned it to a ice cold stare.

"...Yes. Why would I?!"

The way he said it was almost scarier it was way to... like nothing was wrong. Like nothing ever happened. Like he was perfectly fine and the last four days never ever happened.

"Okay? Well I guess I will go then get some rest ...bye."

"...Please don't go yet stay just a little longer."

So I stayed we watched Doctor Who he fell asleep and I left.