2:27 pm : I'm scared I'm really fucking scared because I've got my therapy consultation and if I don't go it still costs £180, why am I afraid of what I need and why does it cost so fucking much.
I hate myself, my boobs are really noticeable today and my binder won't fit properly.
I don't really want to go but I have to, I will update this part later after it happens or not, yay please kill me.
I keep seeing things, I didn't sleep too well last night because of this fact. I haven't had many flashbacks lately it's more like utter numbness and uncontrollable body temperature, because I don't react the way others do I feel like I'm lying.
This is all my fault.
Later: it was okay, I did go we talked about my general life and how I had come to this point. I don't have to get up tomorrow which I don't expect I will. Yay
If you want to know what emdr is I can explain.
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The undoing project
Non-FictionWriting this either shows how stuck up and self involved I am or the fact I just don't give a shit what others think. It's so I understand my life and what I'm going through because I forget thanks to think Go I have. I want to get better and this c...
