Heartlessness (finished)

Chapter 8

Never had I seen a girl look more vulnerable. It's as if anytime before that she had never had a choice. Never had her emotions or thoughts taken into consideration. 

"Alice, you being here is a choice you chose to make, and what you do next... is as well."

Next thing I knew, she was running across the lawn with tears running down her cheeks.  I let her run. There is no point in chasing after her. She needs herself at the moment.

I get up after a long silence and head to the door to the palace. I meet Jane inside, a cup of slightly steaming tea in her hand. 

"O-oh miss, are you alright? Y-you're crying."

I then realised that a single tear had slipped down my face. I swiped it away gracefully, regained my composure, and put my hands calmly in front of me, and plastered on big beautiful smile.

"Yes Jane, I'm fine thank you. Did you get your drink?"

"W-well miss I can't really drink anything right now, because... Well..." She then put her hand on her stomach.

Joy suddenly overcame me, surprisingly.

"Oh Jane! That's wonderful, who's the father?"

"Um... Uh... he left me." She said sadly.

"What?"

"I'd rather not talk about it at the moment."

"Oh of course, sorry I didn't mean to pry. But if you ever need someone, anyone I'm here. And I know that sounds awfully suspicious in the highest manner coming from me... but the offer still stands as long as you need it to."

"Thank you, your highness." She gave me a kind smile and I walked away.

...

What's happening to me. This stupid beating, bleeding, red heart of mine is growing and it's making me weak, making me forgiving. I scowled as I walked up the staircase to my bedroom. I cannot let this happen forgiving leads to betrayal it can't happen again.

I was going to call the sisters, if it means I don't trust people like before, I'll go to their stupid tea party, and give away my heart once again.

Before that however I need to do something, something I haven't done in a long time. 

I get down on two knees beside my bed and put my hands together. I am praying for Jane and Alice. I pray that Jane has her child and lives the happiest life, I'm praying Alice escapes the kingdom before I lose my heart once again so that she shouldn't feel the wrath of my excessive heartless behavior. I pray that everyone in this god forsaken kingdom is safe from the awful, rageful, revengeful, wrath that is my self. I am a hurricane of wretched longing that leads to the pain of others because I have no heart. Selfishness is what I'm known for at this point, keeping myself safe while everyone else suffers. I'll throw away everything to keep myself safe.

"Sisters" I whisper.

"Aww is fickle queen praying for the safety for others, how odd." laughed one of them.

"Take my heart, I'll come to your tea party as long as you take it and shred it and destroy it. Deal?"

"Deal."