His Eyes

chapter 10

I couldn't believe what was happening to me.
Me, Jeon Jungkook , was kissing Park Jimin?
The softness of his lips broke down every single sane thought I was having, and left me wrecked, so wrecked in his arms.
Nothing was seen, nothing was heard, His lips moving so perfect in sync with mine, I tried to keep up but I keep getting lost in the sweet oblivion, so I just let myself carried away.
We pulled apart, for just a bit , to catch our- my- breath.
"Kookie" he whispered huskily against my ears.

And I got lost once again, but this time not in to sweet oblivion, but rather into my nightmare once again.

"Kookie!"
This voice was much more high pitched.
"Hurry up !! We had to go!!"
Every time the same Orange hair saying the same thing over again. Go where?!
I still couldn't make out the face very well, everything is still blurred. But my other sense worked fine. I felt the heat of a fire on my skin, no doubt there was a fire behind me.
I was running, I felt the ricks hit my bare feet mercilessly.
I smelt . I smelt the scent of blood.

"Kook!"
"Jungkookah?"
"Yah! Wake up right now!! "

I opened my eyes to the sound of my worried boss.
I was lying on the staff management room. The celieng fan was rotating above me. The familiarity of the white bland walls, and the huge cupboard at the corner, filled with staff uniforms calmer me down.  I recognized it easily having studied over here on several occasions.
Jin hyung , Taehyung and Jimin hyung were all staring down at me again.
"What happened? " I asked.

"You blacked out again" Jimin hyung's  voice was small, and scared. But it seeped right through into the core of my heart.

My lips still tingling, warmth spread like wild fire as I remembered that specific incident before blacking out.
Jimin hyung was the picture of worry and concern ( so were the other two) , his eyes big and round , looking like a puppy.
I wished I hadn't blacked out , I wanted to continue where we left off.

I sighed, feeling tired all over .
"I'm sorry hyung, this always keep happening when you're around"

Then I realized how wrong the statement was.
"Not that I'm telling that its something wrong with you or any thing! Its just me and my shitty weakness!"

Jimin gave me a wan smile. He must have felt bad, one moment I'm staring , next moment I'm crashing. Why does he even stay with me?

A nagging voice at the back of my head tells me maybe , just maybe him being a number 10 and my ability and my past maybe related.

Then does he have to be the bad guy in my life story?

***
I begged Jin hyung not to tell Yoongi hyung. The last thing I wanted was him to get worried over nothing.

I mean it was not nothing, but I have this really bad feeling , Yoongi hyung might think that Jimin is bad for me , and force me to to see him or anything. Because that was something , I couldn't bear to do.

Despite the possibility that being with him might get me killed.
Finally Jin hyung agreed to keep silent about everything. But he also gave us Two full fans if Strawberry and Chocolate ice cream claiming they were 'good for my health' and that I should eat it regularly.

Taehyung kept his silence all this time.

The three of us headed out if the shop , in subdued manner, none of us knowing what to tell. Jimin hyung probably felt awkward after..you know..that.

But why is Taehyung silent. I mean sure he maybe worried , but his emotions are very loud. He will always tell it out to me, no matter how awful he felt.
Maybe Taehyung must have felt guilty or something, since it was idea to get us to Rio and do all of that .

I don't know whether I should get mad at him or Thank him profusely for it.
All I want is for him to talk.

"Err…so I'll be going?"

Huh? Where were we? Oh right Jimin hyung is in the other neighborhood.
He shifted awkwardly from one foot to another.
Both of us just stood there, not knowing how to react. Taehyung was standing expressionless.
The scene was so wrong in many levels.

"Well OK. Goodbye."

OK. Goodbye. That's how I say good bye to the guy I just kissed and then blacked out on top of.
My parents must be so proud. If they ever knew me that is.
Jimin hyung took one more look at us, then turned and rushed out of our sight.

"Taehyung hyung "  I called him as softly as possible. He just shook his head , indicating the fact he didn't wanted to talk right now.

I don't what upset him, did he see us kissing? Was it me blacking out again? Or was it something completely else?

"Taetae please!" I was desperate. I hated him not talking. Every one and everything around  me was always changing and leaving, but Kim Taetae always stayed as pure and crazy  as I met him.
He was the one person I could depend on , to just be there next to me , whatever shit happens.

"Tae!!" I called out yet again. But he had begun to walk ,  he pushed past me and walked towards his house.  He can't just walk away from me like this.
Not when I needed him the most.

I ran wildly after him , the bag  of Ice cream that Jin hyung gave was rattling loudly  in my hand. I'm pretty sure it must have opened and spilled the contents in side the plastic bag.

But I honestly couldn't care less.
At the point I reached him , I was panting , Taehyung was never athletic but he could move like flash, whenever he wanted to.

"You have to talk to me! You need to tell if something was wrong!"
Taehyung kept walking , ignoring me completely.
At that point , I was pretty pissed.
I walk right in front if him , blocking his path with my body and arms.

"Yah! "
He finally looked up.
I glared at him. We had a minute of a staring contest. In the end I won.

And he sighed. "Kookah, I'm worried about you getting black outs more often and your nightmares seem severe than before. And it all started after Jimin came. "

"But you said-"
" I know that I said. But I'm getting worried about this. Jimin is seriously having a bad effect in you. I don't want to stop you two because you really like him , and he seems like a nice guy. I don't want to believe that he is someone bad. But Jungkook, I have a bad feeling about him. I just don't know how to tell you. I feel bad , because it was me who was trying to set you together before and now I'm telling you not to get together, it seems unfair. And I don't want to do that."

He finished , with his head down , refusing to meet my eyes.
I curled my lip. Oh my tricycle. This is getting so messed up. I hate  making Taetae feeling bad about anything. But I don't want to let go of Jimin hyung either. And about Taehyung's  'feeling' I know that only too well.

"OK, I get what you're saying, but I don't think I can let go of Jimin hyung OK? These attacks……..I  don't know Taehyung, I think its just me you know? Like , no matter who the person, it myself which trigger the panic attack, …i don't want to think about it……I will be fine Taetae"

He finally smiled. "OK, that's cool, maybe I'm just wrong, we'll see if Jiminie is actually dangerous right? But promise me Jungkook , you won't do anything stupid? "

" I promise "