Falling...

Chapter 3- Keith's view

Today is the day I finally talk to Lance. We just finished training, I was going to catch Lance but I think he knew I was going to follow him to his room so I could talk. Thing is I have no clue where his room is.

"Shiro, do you know where Lance is? I need to have a chat with him."

"uhm... have you checked his room? You know him, he's probably sleeping or something. Why, is there something going on?'

Shit. Shiro is always able to see right through me. I walked away room without replying to Shiro. I know, I'm a huge dick but I just don't really want to explain or make up an excuse on why I need to talk to Lance. I trudged around the castle for around 15 minutes until I finally found his room. I braced myself and walked up to the door.

what the heck...why am I so nervous all of  the sudden! I've never felt like this before...

I knocked on the door more forcefully than I intended. I asked "Hello? Lance are you in there?" probably more irritated than I should have. Oh well, here goes nothing. I waited a few more moments before knocking again. This time I heard someone shuffle. "Lance for the love of-". The door opened. The Cuban stood there in boxers and an opened bath robe, He didn't have a shirt on oh lord."Keith be careful your gay might show."  When he opened the door Keith could see the mix of confusion and fear in his eyes, even though his posture was sassy and defiant.

"Mullet, w-what do you want?"

"We need to talk, let me in." I tried to walk in but Lance stopped me.

"And what do you think you are doing! Walking into my room like that."

"Lance please I really need to talk to you, right now." I must have looked pretty scary. Lance's posture changed from one of defiant and in control, to one of caution and apprehension. Without a word Lance gestured for me to come inside. He closed the door behind me. When I looked at him again he didn't look like the Lance I thought I knew. Instead I saw a frightened mirror image of the Cuban. I could see it in his eyes, he was terrified of me. he has every damn right to be.

"What do you want Keith." Lances voice sounded angry, but he sure didn't show he was mad.

"I need- we need to talk Lance. I'm sure you remember what happened a few years ago at the Garrison. What I did was-" Lance cut me off, his posture changed again, he was livid.

"What the fuck Keith. You walk into my room and you want to bring this up! You dont have a damn clue what you put me through! I went to therapy for years. I had to start taking medication for depression and anxiety! They are back on earth and I'm here, in a gigantic space castle fighting evil tyrants. I didn't want to do this but I'm doing it for other people like me Keith. The people who were tormented by sick assholes like you!"

"Lance I wanted to apologize. I know what I did is unforgivable but please, I want to be friends now and-" He cut me off again. Now I'm starting to get mad.

"Its been four fucking years and you want to all of the sudden apologize?! You must be out of your-" Out of anger I shoved him against the wall. I walked to him and got in his face. I had to make it clear who was running this conversation. I know I shouldn't have done that, but it was either this or I'd have punched him.

"Don't interrupt me." I pushed him harder into the wall, I was so furious at myself that I had to take it out on him. I wanted to stop but I couldn't.

"Let go of me you prick!" His voice was full of fear. I could feel his heartbeat increase. I must have been clenching his wrists to hard, I had dug my nails into is dark skin. He yelped in pain and I let go.

"What the heck is wrong with you?" Lance backed away and sat on his bed. And I stood there, my anger was released.

"Lance... I'm so sorry, I lost control, anger issues you know?" I said with a slight chuckle. Lance didn't respond. He only sat and held his wrist where I had hurt him.

"Lance, I was a stupid kid back at the Garrison. Really, I was, and I was angry at you because I knew you had so much potential but you wasted it by being an egotistical jerk. I took our rivalry way too far. I never meant for it to be like this. I really wanted to be friends with you. I've changed, you don't need to be afraid of me anymore." I sat down beside him, he looked at me and there was a tear in his eye.

"Keith, I believe you. The old you wouldn't have just apologized to me you know? But, I still don't feel entirely comfortable around you. I believe we can be good friends but its going to take a while..."

"I understand, thank you for talking with me Lance. It means a lot. I'm really sorry about slamming you into a wall and stuff. "

"Its okay Mullet, I'll get you back..."

Oh b0i, I don't usually put authors notes but that was a really long chapter, hope you all don't mind the double update ;) writing this was fun yet difficult. not used to the angst yet lol.