Crash

Chapter 6

Lise

I felt my whole body getting warm by every passing second. I didn't knew what to do. I didn't knew if I should even stand up. "The coffee is ready darling." I looked up quickly. "Yeah." I said obliviously. I stood up, fixed my pants and walked inside. I saw the coffee on top of the desk. I went and sat down. 'Please Andrew come back, pleaseee.' She sat down and stared at me. She stared with sadness and concern all over her face. She opened her mouth to speak but, "hey beautiful ladies." Said Andrew. I gasped in relief. "Hey baby." Victoria said. You can get some coffee in the kitchen. "Oh ok I'll get-" "No, I'll get it for you. You can stay here." I said standing up. I was literally avoiding been alone with Victoria. "I'm going to stay here tonight mum, and if it's ok, Lise too." " Oh of course. I would love for her to stay." I walked out of the kitchen and handed Andrew the cup of coffee. "Thanks darling." He said smiling at me. I smiled back and sat beside him. He came close to my face and kissed my cheek. I smiled at him. Taking his hand under the desk. His grip slightly tightened making me feel like crying. I was so scared about what just happened. I let go of his hand and placed my hands on the table standing up. "I'm going to take a shower." "I'll show you where the bathroom is." Victoria said smiling. Shot... nice play.

"I'll get you a towel. Keep straight, third door to the right." "Thanks." I was walking until I reached the door. Victoria pulled me around. "Here." She said. I took the towel. "Lise...-" "Victoria I- i don't want to talk about that... Just act like you didn't saw anything." "Lise, you are asking me to ignore the fact that I saw your thighs ripped open, you are my sons girlfriend basically. He loves you." "Victoria please... If it's God plan for us to get married he'll see them. Not today." "So you are going to wait until you get married to tell him?" "What is that supposed to mean? He won't accept me for that? He will just leave because I do that? You are telling me that because I'm depressed he won't accept me and he will leave?" "No I-" "You weren't supposed to see, you weren't supposed to know. And that is clearly what you mean... Thank you for the coffee, I had a great time." I handed her the towel and walked towards the dinning room. "Andrew. I'm not feeling very well, can you take me to my house please?" "I thought you were going to stay. Are you ok?" "Yeah I'm fine, I just remembered I have to do something for uni and I have to practice for a test. And I'm not feeling very well." "Ok.. I'll take you." I walked to the car and got in. My eyes were welling up with tears. I was breathing heavy.

Andrew

"What did you do?" "I didn't do anything." "You clearly did mum!" "Andrew take that girl to her house." "And why should I do that?" "Because she wants to." "Sure." I said walking away. As soon as I walked out the door I saw Lise in my car trying hard not to cry. I got in the car and drove to her house. "What-" "i don't want to talk Andrew." "Ok..." What did my mum told her. What is happening. I got to her house and stopped. "Lise I-" "I had a great time. I'll text you later. Si?" Before letting me talk she ran out of the car and walked towards the door.

Lise

As soon as I got out of the car I bawled my life out. I was so sad and devastated. Why would she- I really couldn't think straight. I opened the door and walked up the stairs. I went in my bathroom and took all my clothe off and walked in the shower. After taking a shower as I took my bathing suits off And washed my body I saw the foundation coming off of my bruises on my waist arms and hands. I walked out and put on pjamas and went in my bed. I heard my phone ring. I picked it up and saw it was Andrew. I ignored it. I turned my phone off. I couldn't make myself go to sleep so I got up and walked to my kitchen. I made some tea and walked to my rooftop. I sat down and inhaled a lot of air not enough to fill my lungs though. I took a sip of my tea and tears went down my cheeks. "I guess this is what happens when you self harm huh?" I said looking up. Looking for him to talk to me. Looking for an answer. I stayed there for the longest time, thinking, praying, talking to myself. I didn't realise how much time had passed until I saw the sun slowly rising. It amazed me how the colours changed. How it went from dark, to purple, then orange, to slight pink and all the mixing of the colours. A slight smile took over my lips. "It's beautiful." So today is Sunday and I actually don't have anything to do. I got up and went to my kitchen. It's mad how I'm still not tired but I know that If i lay on my bed I'll quickly fall asleep. I started making myself breakfast. I went to my room and saw my phone in the floor. I picked it up and turned it on. As soon as I turned it on I received every message I didn't wanted to receive. I got messages from Andrew, Angel, Victoria, my mum. Million of calls from Andrew. I placed my phone down and suddenly it rang. I picked it up and it was Angel. "Hello!" I said. "Hey baby how are you?!" "I'm ok. How are you?" "What's wrong?" "What do You mean?" "Lise.. Come on." I felt a lump quickly formed in my throat. I couldn't hold back the tears. "Angel..." I gasped for hair. "She saw them-" "Who? Who saw what darling?" "Victoria. She saw my cuts Angel...". "Lise Lise, who's Victoria?! What are you saying?" "Ay I didn't told you. I'm talking to a guy.. I mean I- i love him Angel, he- he makes my days brighter and I just feel like I just lost him... his mum, Victoria, she saw my cuts in the pool today and she doesn't want me with him. She wants me to tell him now... not when he sees them because she thinks it will change his mind because I'm sad, because I'm depressed Angel... what am I supposed to do? I left yesterday, I told him to bring me to my house and I didn't told him anything." "Baby... Listen. I don't really like what she did. I'm actually angry, but. You are not in a relationship with her. You are in a relationship with him." "Andrew." "Well you are in a relationship with Andrew. And if he loves you as you love him. I'm sure you guys will last. So be honest with him darling, don't let this opportunity pass just because you are scared or ashamed." "Ok... I'll talk to him if it's not like she already told him.. Thank you so much... I love you and I miss you!" "I love you too and I miss you more!" I saw outside the window and it was around 13:00 and no I haven't slept anything. I sighed. I decided to go to sleep. I went to my room and got in my bed.

Andrew

I finished working late today, I looked at my cellphone and it was 22:00. And Lise never answered my messages nor my calls. I went to my apartment and made myself food. I decided to try and call Lise again. I dialled her number, it rang and rang but she never picked up. I sighed, I placed my hands in the counter and I felt my body shrink, I was crying. For the first time since my fiancée died I was crying for a woman. I ate and after that took a shower and went to sleep.

I woke up around 11:00, I got up and got dressed. I decided I was going to go and talk to my mum. Because I needed to understand what was happening. I got to my mums house and knocked on her door. She opened the door. "You need to tell me what happened. Now." "I can't tell you..." "Listen mum, I'm not going to lose this one just because a miss understanding happened. What's the big deal?! What did she do? She did something wrong ? To you? What is it?! You have to tell me! I don't want to lose her! I-" "She cuts herself Andrew! She's depressed! And I don't know what to tell you! Andrew... she can commit suicide whenever." "What?" "She cuts herself..." "You know mum, not everyone that cuts wants to kill themselves. You- Waoh. I can't even believe this. What did you told her? That I won't love her because she does that? That I'm going to leave her?" She didn't answer, she looked down. "You did? You did told her that. Why would you even think that?! My God mum!"
I ran out the door and got in my car. I drove to Lise house. When I got there I looked at the front door and sighed. "Please don't let me lose her..." I said looking up. I got out of the car. I walked towards the door and knocked. No response. I knocked again and heard footsteps. She opened the door and only stared. I knew she didn't know what to say, because I didn't knew either. "I-" "Save it Andrew." She said turning around. "Why are you angry with me? I didn't do anything." "This was all a big mistake Andrew, if your mum doesn't like me we can't do this." "Do what Lise?" "Be together Andrew! For your sake. How can you not see she-" "she doesn't know what she said. She- she didn't meant that." "Oh I'm so sure she didn't. She looked really serious and concerned about it." "I'm not going to leave because of that... I love you Lise. I love you and your flaws, you and your feelings. You and your cuts. She. Doesn't. Know what she said. Because I'm not leaving." "Yes you will. Everyone leaves, everyone gets tired of sad people, everyone snap. Even me. It won't be the first time." "Well that time was the last time. Because I'm not leaving. Because he doesn't know what he lost. But I know what I won. And I'm so head forwards for you Lise. Screw them, screw whoever used you. But I'm not going to lose you." "You promise... If I open up to you one day you won't leave?" "I won't." I said pulling her by her hand. I caressed her cheek and hugged her. She hugged me back. She looked at me and I leaned in and kissed her. She wrapped her arms around my neck and I pulled her closer to me. "I love you." She simple smiled. "Why don't we get some ice cream and watch a film here?" "Sounds like a plan." She said.