Tangled Up in You

Chapter 4

The ambulance pulled up. The EMTs loaded Carlee in the ambulance and I crawled in the back with her. I grabbed her hand and held it. There was still a little bit of warmth left in her hand. I just started talking to her.

"Carlee... why? Why didn't you come to me? We've been through so much together, I thought you trusted me? I cant help but blame myself. I should've been there more. When I saw those cuts it just brought back all the bad stuff back. It's like I was trapped and didn't have a way out."

I laid my head on her hand.

"Please... if you can hear me..come back to me."

We arrived at the hospital. The EMTs got Carlee out and rushed to the door.

"We've got a self-injury. Female. 17 years of age. Shes lost a lot of blood."

The nurse took Carlee into a room and bandaged her wrist and hooked her up to an IV. The nurse said no one could go in in the room until the doctor saw her.

I was pacing the halls and watching Carlee's room at the same time. Suddenly I heard a repeated beeping sound coming from Carlee's room. I saw a nurse run into the room. The doctor called for an AED. I ran to the door but the nurse caught me and told me that I couldn't be in there but told me she would do everything she could for Carlee. I started trying to fight my way through the nurse but she wouldn't let me go. Then I heard the flatline.

"NO!"

I pushed my way through the nurse and ran over to the bed.

"Why didn't you help her! You knew she was dying and you just stood there and let her die!"

A nurse came over to me, put her hands on my shoulders, and tried to hug me. I looked up to see my grandparents at the front desk. I ran out of the room and ran straight for the hospital exit. I couldn't stand being in there with everyone's eyes on me. I just wanted my best friend back.

I didn't know where I was running to. I knew there was a park around this neighborhood. I slowed down to a walk. The doctors didn't do a single thing, they just let her die. I mean yea they did the AED but they only did it once then Carlee was gone. They should have been faster. I reached the park, and went over to the bench and sat down. I leaned forward, dropping my head in my hands. Everything was over. She was gone. I'm alone now. I felt my phone vibrate, it was my grandparents so I didn't answer.

I don't want to talk to anyone especially them. I stayed at the park until after nightfall. I had twenty miss calls from my grandparents but I could care less right now. I started walking home. Everything looked different now. I started noticing things I never noticed before when I reached my driveway, I dug my keys out of my pocket and went to unlock the door. My grandparents were waiting for me in the living room.

"Kali where have you been?! We've been worried sick. We tried calling you. Our next step was calling the police."

"I'm going to my room."

"Kali we need to talk to you."

"My best friend is dead, I don't want to talk."

I just walked off, and went to my room. I closed my door and laid on the bed. I was tired and I needed sleep.

I woke up to my grandparents arguing. I heard my name in the muffled sounds that sounded like words. I got up and rubbed my eyes. I didn't want to get ready today, because I knew what today held in its hand. I dreamt last night that Carlee was still alive and that she was actually happy. Then I woke up and BOOM! I'm back in reality. I can't even be happy in my dreams now. When I finally got dressed, I went downstairs to find my grandparents were all dressed up. We walked out the door and got in the car.

I don't remember much of anything. It's all a blur. I went to the funeral and felt so many eyes on me the whole time. I heard whispers of people saying, "Is she going to be ok?" After the casket was in the vault and everybody left, I sat on the ground, alone. Thinking of all the times, I had with Carlee, and now all those times are gone, forever. As I was getting up, I saw a shadow walking behind me. The figure was tall, I jumped up quickly only to see Kyle.

"Kyle? What are you doing here?"

"Your mom called my mom and told her about Carlee. Kali I'm really sorry, I know she meant a lot to you."

Kyle has always been the sensitive type even though he was Carlee's ex-boyfriend, he was always like our brother. Kyle lived in Pennsylvania, he'd rather be on his PlayStation 4, than be at school hanging out with his friends. Carlee and I always tried to tell him that friends online are very different from real people.

"You never know who could be hiding behind that gamer tag." Carlee always said when we went up to visit Kyle.

"True Carl's but you only get hurt in the game, not like you do by people in the real world."

"Yes, but you never know until you try, " I said.

I didn't realize i was thinking until Kyle called my name. After i woke up from my daydream, I started to cry because I knew now that with my parents gone and now with Carlee being gone that nothing would ever be the same anymore. I looked back down at where my best friend layed, and said my final good-bye. Carlee was never really the religious type, but she always went to church when she was little.

My parents never went to church. I wouldn't know a bible verse if I heard it. The last time we went to church, my brother ran all over the church while the priest was preaching. The priest asked to leave quietly before service was over.