Our Future || Jung hoseok Fan Fic || {COMPLETED}

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As soon as he left, without thinking I went straight to my bathroom. I opened the medicine cabinet and saw it. The thing I've abandoned for years. The razor blade I used to use to make me forget. I grabbed it and pressed it against my wrist. Almost immediately, the stinging sensation could be felt throughout my whole body. I saw the red blood drip down my forearm and into the sink. I placed the blade on a new spot on my wrist. Once again, I pressed down. I repeated this until I felt satisfied. It hurt but for some reason I enjoyed the pain. I cleaned up all the blood and turned around to go back to my room. I stopped in my tracks when I saw a familiar face staring at me with a hurt expression. Jung hoseok was right in front of me.

"What were you just doing to yourself?" he asked, fury in his eyes.

"W-why are you here? I t-thought you left." I stuttered.

"I left my phone so I came back. And I see this." he said his voice trailing off.

"Why Y/N? Why would you do this to yourself?" he said trying to grab my arm to look at the cuts. I harshly pulled my arm away from him. "Do you know how much it hurts me to see you like this?" he sounded like he was about to break down in tears.

"I-im sorry." I said, feeling broken. Those were the only word I could say. He slowly walked towards me, stumbling. When he reached me he pulled me into a tight hug, not letting go. "Promise me Y/N. Please. Promise me that you'll never do this again." he begged. All I could do was nod. "Come on. Promise me." he said, his voice raspy.

"I promise." I said. He slowly let go of me, releasing me from the hug. But to be honest I didn't want him to let go. I loved the way I could smell him so close to me. I loved the way I could feel him so close to me. This second I knew...

That I would have a hard time letting go.

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The next day hoseok and I felt closer for some reason. He walked me home like he usually did. I was about to walk through the door but he stopped me. I turned around to hear what he had to say.

"I love you." he said with a smile.

"I love you too." I replied. I then continued to enter my house, closing the door shut before going up to my room. I was in the middle of reading a book when I started to feel that same pain in my stomach. I stood up to go get some pain relieving medicine, but collapsed immediately. I hurriedly grabbed my phone out of my pocket and clicked hoseok's contact. He answered quickly.

"Y/N? What's up?" he greeted.

"H-hoseok, I love you." I said as tears streamed down my face.

"What's wrong?" he asked concern in his voice. I hung up and slowly felt myself drifting off into darkness, with hoseok being the last thing in my mind.