Our Future || Jung hoseok Fan Fic || {COMPLETED}

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Hoseok and I started getting closer to each other. We were always beside each other wherever we went. I learned that we had a lot of things in common. But after everyday I've spent with him, when I'd go home I would cry myself to sleep. The more time I spent with him, the more tears I would shed. And it was my fault. Because I still had hopes. I still told myself that its going to be different, when I already know its not. When I already know...

Its going to end.

Even though I knew. I was just making things harder for myself, I still stayed by him. My condition has gotten worst. Because of this I always cherished my days with hoseok. I loved spending time with him. I could even say it's the thing I loved most.

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We were sitting on a bench together in the school garden.

"Hey Y/N, can I ask you something." hoseok asked.

"Sure" I replied, curious of what he was going to say.

"I-i like you. A lot." my heart stopped. I was so happy but at the same time I was so angry. Angry at the world. Why. Why can't I be with him. What did i do to deserve this. I just continued to listen to what he had to say. "W-will you be my girlfriend?" he asked nervously.

"Yes." I said and smiled as a tear slid down my cheek.

"Aww~ you're crying tears of joy." hoseok said and gave me a big hug. But what he didn't know was, that tear wasn't a tear of joy. It was a tear of sadness. Because I know this won't last forever. And it pains me to know that. When I got home I just stared out my window. Looking at the people walking by. They all looked so happy. Some were with their children. I knew that I would never have any. I hated these people I saw. I hated everyone in this world except him. I just wanted to scream at them 'why do you get to be so happy' 'what makes you so special that you get to live a long and healthy life'. Why was life so unfair to me? I never found the answer to that question.

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The next day we were walking to school together and I surprised myself when I asked hoseok a question.

"What would you do if I wasn't here anymore. Like in this world?" i asked. He stared out into the sky thinking of his answer.

"Then I wouldn't be able to be in this world either. Wherever you go, I would follow you there." he said.

"Hoseok. If I'm not in this world anymore, please don't do anything to yourself. Promise me that." i said and stuck out my pinky like a child. He hesitated a bit but he linked his pinky with mine.

"O-okay. I promise." he replied. Once he said this i felt at ease. "Why do you ask?" i was taken aback by his question.

"N-no reason. I was just thinking." I stated. He nodded.

"Its okay. I know we'll be together forever. I can feel it." he said cheerfully. His words put a frown on my face. Thankfully he didn't notice. It saddens me because I know...

Forever, doesn't always mean forever.