Beautiful Nightmare

A Possible Peace?

{ Sorry if this chapter is kinda shitty guys, I'm just trying to get back into the swing of writing.}
Avi POV:
Ever since I got back home from the hospital and everything that went on beforehand, I've been so paranoid and jumpy that something bad would happen out of no where.  Now I know, I shouldn't be so jumpy because of the damage I ensued when I went into the Underworld but god damn it that old fear of something bad happening when I finally get something good happens won't leave. And..I don't know how to get it to leave.. it's like a small demon just sitting on my shoulder or holding onto my back just ready to sink in and attack me out of no where and send me into that crushing paranoia that I always seem to feel like annoys people. I hate it so much; but I don't know how to get it to stop.
"Avi, it's gonna be okay, love." Kirstie says in an attempt to soothe my raging nerves.
"I know, Kirstie, but I can't shake it off! I don't know if what I did down there was enough to solve my problem for good! You know my father is a powerful man and could probably send my life into a spiraling pit of hell in seconds! I'm scared it's going to happen again and I loose more than just my little sister!" I yelled then covered my mouth once I realized what I just said.
"I-I-I'm so sorry..I didn't mean to snap like that.." I mumbled as I looked down at my feet.
"Love, it's okay, I know you're under a lot of stress." Kirstie whispered. "And I know people lash out out of no where when they get like that."
I sighed softly then nodded. I just..I hated the way I'd overreact then overthink things like this. I always do.. And I always feel like a little immature baby when I do it... I never knew how to deal with it when I had little panic moments I guess I could call it. My mom was just trying to help me learn healthy ways to cope when I get panicky and even depressed when I had those moments. I don't know how my mom spotted those moods in little me, but I guess she just had that motherly sense of knowing. God..I wish she was still here...she would know how to help me with all of this...
God damn it, Avi, stop sulking around and figure out a way to protect your loved ones and your sister.. you don't know when something could happen again..

But then again..there's always a sneaking suspicion that it will happen soon in the back of my mind...

Hey guys! This is just kind of a small chapter to get myself used to writing again. I took such a long break I kinda lost my nick for writing; so I hope I can get that feeling back in me again. Anyways, I'll see you guys later!
Peace ✌️ 💕
~Fanboy💛