It's been 3 months since Daniel & I have been talking over the phone. We facetime every night but we don't talk as often during the day. I know so much about him & I tell him everything about me. He's the one boy I want to talk to about my day & the only boy I want to talk to at all. It's kind of hard lately, he's been rehearsing so much for their tour & he does pop up shows & interviews all the time, he hardly has his phone on him. We live 40 minutes away from each other but I never get to see him. I was having my doubts & Daniel could tell. He always knows when something is up with me.
Daniel texted me saying "Hey Kira, how was your day ?" "Hello ?" "What's wrong ?"
I got a call from Daniel, but I just let it ring. I didn't quite feel like talking to him since he hasn't responded in a long time or called me. I love that he's in a band & I want nothing but him to succeed in life but I can't take it anymore. I can't take not physically seeing him or being with him.
Daniel texted me again "Kira please pick up the phone, you always respond right away & you're starting to scare me. Is everything okay ? I just want to hear your voice .."
Gosh, he's so cute even when he's not trying. I had to respond.
"I'm sorry Daniel, I'm just not in a good place right now. I just really wish we could see each other & that we could hang out & talk in person, not over the phone. I'm done staring at a phone screen. I understand you're busy but it's been really hard lately. I don't know if I can do this ..."
Daniel responded "Please facetime me ..."
Daniel called me & I answered this time holding back the urge to scream & yell at him for bringing me into this relationship.
"Kira what's wrong ?"
"I'm sorry Daniel. I really am. But I can't keep looking at my phone screen waiting for your call, I can't keep having to check my phone in fear that i'll miss your call. I'm not one of those girls who wait around for guys all the time. I really like you, but what even are we Daniel ? Are we friends or are we more than friends ? We've been talking for months yet we haven't seen each other in person. I miss you. I miss the real you, the physical you. I'm so happy for your success but I don't know if I can do this 'long distance' thing anymore."
"Kira, don't be sorry. I know it's hard. & I'm trying my best to talk to you whenever I'm free, but you know that I can't be on call 24/7 as much as I'd like to talk to you all day. If you really can't handle it, then I'm not stopping you from never talking to me again. I don't want to hold you back from someone else who can treat you better than I can. But I was waiting to tell you this until I knew for sure, but I might as well tell you now ..."
"What is it Daniel ?"
"Our manager is giving us a week off in 2 weeks since we've been rehearsing so hard & he's letting us go anywhere we want to. Most of the boys are going back home to see their families before tour, but I was hoping I could spend the week with you ? I was going to get a hotel room near your house & then just stay there ... we also need to talk with your parents, but I really want to see you Kira .. if you're up for it ?"
"DANIEL ARE YOU KIDDING ME THIS IS THE BEST NEWS EVER ! 2 weeks is a long time, but I can stick it out for you .. I'm so excited ! Oh my gosh Daniel, I can't believe it, I can't stop smiling right now ..."
"I love that you're so happy ... I'll see you in 2 weeks ?"
"YES"
