No Pain Tomorrow (A Grayza Fanfic)

Epilogue: Change me

She gave him the letter before leaving for her duty.

"I'll have the doctor check you up." She patted his head, smiled at him and left. Though, she felt sad that she couldn't stay by his side to console him. After all, it was hard seeing him cry when he didn't want to and it was seeing him not feel pain when he wanted to.

Gray flipped open the letter and saw the page filled with an handwriting he wasn't familiar with.He never saw Erza write but after seeing her words bleed on the paper, it made him feel happy and the touch of the paper made him realize that it was the same one he had given her to write something. All the more, he became apprehensive to read it.

He closed the letter, took a deep breath and recalled Erza's rare smile.

The smile that would lift his spirits high, that would make him feel like the happiest person on the earth and the smile that he had fallen for a million times.

In his imagination, her scarlet hair blew strongly in the wind. He was desperately searching for her through the fields of daisies. He was crying but he didn't care because all he wanted was to look at her face one more time.

"Gray..." A voice called out to him and he turned around. There she was, smiling at him with her pasty red lips and her scarred hands were shyly hiding behind her. "Read." She whispered and immediately, Gray's eyes shot open from his involuntary sleep.

He looked around but there was no one. Perhaps, a presence, but he never believed it.

He flipped open the paper and this time, prepared himself to read it.

"To, the guy who I had fallen in love with but never said so.

You told me to write. So, I'm writing. I feel miserable yet I'm writing because I miss you. I didn't know you were going to leave me first...I didn't know how much you were suffering. How much pain you were enduring. How could I? I'm sorry that I couldn't feel what you were feeling but maybe, it's for the good? Maybe, I don't feel pain for a reason. Maybe, it's fate. Or maybe it's nothing.

I don't know. I just don't want you to die. I don't want you to die before knowing how much I love you. I don't want you to leave me without making me feel pain because I'm sure if you spend another day with me...then it may be that I can feel what you're feeling. Change me, Gray. It's not you who should be sorry. It's me. I wish I could tell you how much I love you but perchance, there's another way I can do that? 

I might not feel pain tomorrow but at least I know that there is someone who can help me feel it." 

THE END.