Don't Leave Me (Noodle x Reader)

Drowning

WARNING: CONTAINS DEPRESSION AND SELF HARM, IF YOU'RE SENSITIVE TO THIS STUFF I DON'T RECOMMEND READING ANY FURTHER!

(Y/N)'s POV-

I just sat on the roof, sobbing with my hands over my eyes. Hot tears running down my already tear stained face. I forgot to mention... I suffer from depression, I have to admit yesterday when I met Noodle I forgot all about it. "S-Stupid... STUPID!" I yell in anger blaming myself. This always happens... I always blame myself, but I deserve it, I caused it. 

I push my hair back rubbing the scars on my neck that I have inflicted myself. I did it to make myself feel better? I can't really explain it myself... it's complicated, I always did it after school because I barely had any friends myself, I was an outcast I felt so lonely... and Noodle was the one who was going to fill that gap... but... I push my face into my knees again.  I can feel the warm breeze of the mid July weather brush my hair back slightly, as I could hear birds chirp all around me, everything seemed so right except for me.

Noodle's POV-

When I went into the house leaving (Y/N) on the roof I walked past 2D and some girl he was with, she seemed to stare at me noticing my bad mood. I just stomped my way past them going to my room. Walking through the hallway I stop just standing there... in silence. Then it hit me... I actually got kissed from (Y/N), and what did I do? I slapped her. I'm so stupid!

I could feel my eyes start to water a bit but I wipe them quickly, I'm stronger than that. I probably shouldn't leave (Y/N) on the roof, you know what she'll come down... she got up there herself. I stomp to my room finally reaching the door opening it and quickly making my way to my bed. I throw myself onto the bed and scream into my pillow.  After screaming my lungs out I get a bit tired as I close my eyes, the scene between (Y/N) and I replaying over and over again, I let out a sigh before falling asleep 

~Noodle's Dream~

I look around, everything was surrounded by water, I for some reason was able to stand on it. I look around a bit, I notice a familiar (H/C) girl struggling to swim. "(Y/N)?!" I shout confused and scared, (Y/N) just looks at me with tears pouring down her eyes making the huge body of water bigger. She looks so hurt, I can still see the red mark on her cheek from when I slapped her.

I felt guilt grow inside of me rapidly as I see how hurt she was. "(Y/N)! Hold on!" I shout running on top of the water towards her, I can't loose her I don't care what I said I need her! "(Y/N)!" I shout once again, it seemed as if the more I ran the further (Y/N) got. I heard something that made my heart shatter. 

"I'm sorry Noodle... I love you, goodbye." (Y/N) said giving a sad smile before giving up her struggling sinking down to the bottom. "NO! (Y/N)!" I shout running, running as much as I can but she just got further away. I could feel tears pour from my eyes and then suddenly I got pulled down by something... I could feel myself falling.

~Dream Over~

I wake up sitting up from the bed panting heavily feeling a wet sensation on my cheeks, I put my hand up to my face feeling my tears, I wipe them away quickly jumping out from my bed and  running out of my room. I got to go find (Y/N), I run down the hallway running past Russel who seemed a bit confused, but continued on his way with a lot of bread. I ignored it, I needed to find (Y/N).

I reach the outside door and open it quickly going to the ladder that lead to the roof, I look up seeing (Y/N)'s legs dangling from the the edge, my eyes widen in fear "(Y/N), please don't do it!" I shout feeling my heart break. "Do what?" Was all she said looking down at me with puffy eyes that still had tears in them. "Please don't jump! I need you!" Was all I could choke out. "Y-You need me?" (Y/N) asked happily with more tears starting to form in her eyes. 

"YES! Please just come down here- safely!" I shout watching her every move. She got the the ladder and started climbing down carefully, once she was all the way down I embraced her into a tight hug. "Noodle I-" "No, don't say you're sorry, I should be the one to say that!" I yell hugging her tighter feeling my heart flutter a bit. "I was going to say I love you, but I still am sorry." I pull away from the hug as I look into her beautiful sparkling eyes. 

"You love me...?" I said blushing A LOT! (Y/N) just smiles and nods sheepishly. I grab her face and put my lips gently on hers giving her a passionate kiss, she didn't kiss back though which caused me to pull back. "You can kiss back you know... I won't slap you." I say looking down shyly. (Y/N) suddenly pulls me into another kiss which we both shared for about a minute before pulling away for air. I smiled at her, pulling her hair back before I noticed something... marks on her neck...

"(Y/N)? What is that...?"