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Pt.19

Shaela

Saying I was nervous for tonight was an understatement. I haven't been with Derek alone since he cheated and I keep telling myself I'm ready but I'm not.

Negative thoughts filled my head making me doubt my decision. I was overthinking and I wanted to talk to somebody and get conformation on going. But knew if I went to Stassie she'd immediately tell me not to go because she doesn't like Derek and others would just tell me that it's my decision. So I'll follow the majority's advice, it's my decision.

It's 7:05 at the moment and I just finished finding some heels for my outfit. My phone buzzes and I see it's Derek.

Derek: I'm on my way.

me: ok.

I stare at the short dialogue on my phone and sigh. I miss Derek dearly and I want him back so bad but I wouldn't be able to trust him if we got back together. I know what Derek wants even though he's not showing it too much. I think it's stupid because if he loved me so bad then he wouldn't cheat and he'd at least try to get me back so bad because I'm not the one to dwell on my exes for too long.

For instance, Nate has been helping me a lot, we've gotten closer and I'm growing small feelings for him but i won't tell him until I know if I'm done with Derek or not.

My thoughts are interrupted by my phone buzzing again, Derek must be here.

Derek: here

I got off my bed and checked myself in the mirror for the last time before leaving.

[what she's wearing]

I headed downstairs, grabbed a small clutch next to the door and headed out.

When I got close to the car I noticed Derek looking down at his phone so I continue walk but more obnoxiously to get his attention.

Clank, clank, clank...

Go the sound of my heels. He finally looks up and his mouth parts and I felt more satisfied.

"Hello Derek," I smirk and his expression finally turned into a firm face.

"Shaela... are you trying to get every guys attention tonight." He was jealous and I was amused.

"No, just going out to have fun, for me," I said in a duh tone.

"uh yea you're gonna have fun, alright, in different clothes." he tries to order me. I dryly giggle

"you're not my boyfriend anymore so what does it matter?"

"you're right, but you're still mine" he stares into my eyes knowing that I was affected by those words.

I wanted to kiss him so bad and he knew.. that's why he leaned in and I did too but as I did he turned his head and started the car.

Son of a bitch. Game on.