Little Monsters

Dinner night

I wake up to the smell of Bacon and cinnamon toast. "Get up sunshines, I'm headed out to work, be angels today." My mom says excitedly bursting through my door. Brice rises up from my floor and stretches. "I'm getting food, can I get you anything?" He ask. "Ummm bacon." I smile back. As Brice gets up to get our food I change into my oversized t-shirt and lounge shorts, I sit on my bed and check my phone and then lay it down to remember last night. I wander if he even remembers or is thinking about it. What will he think of me or will anything change? "Here's your bacon." He hands me a plate full of bacon because I'm just that person that's eats plates of bacon. I see him sit on my floor and eat and I'm hoping the subject want come up. And just as I even as hope it want happen - "Hey about what happened last night, you have my word. You are my best friend and I'm willing to break a few laws for you. You just can't show." Brice tells me stuffing his face. I smile back. "And I mean it's really nothing that bad it's not like your a weapon your just more creative and different that's literally all it is, no big deal." He also says stuffing his face. But I think to myself that maybe he's right. Maybe I am over exaggerating and all it is, is just a little something to hide. It hurts but I don't want to make it a big deal if it's really not.
"Your right." I say

It's been a while and Brice has went home to change because tonight is Harlem's out of school dinner. I shower, and change into a white dress that ends at my knees and black heels. I hate wearing such dressy clothes. But I knew I had to.
*door bell*
I go to answer the door and as soon as open it Brice shoots in. "Do I look ok, help?" He starts panicking. He is wearing a fitted black tux and honestly my eyes couldn't leave what I was looking at. He looked... great like I hate to say this to myself but he looked hot. "You look gross" I laugh and tell him. He looks at me annoyed and knows he looks good "thanks doll." He tells me and walks upstairs to my room. "Were leaving soon am I driving?" Brice asked fixing his hair in my mirror. "Uhh yeah if you want."
"Great." He says leaving the mirror.
We get in. We get in Brice's big white truck that he got last year and I still seem to be to short to reach the seat. "Do you think you'll be ok tonight?" Brice ask me driving. "Oh uh yeah I should be fine." I say glancing at him then turning my head back to the front.
It's about 9 O'clock now and we just arrived at Harlem's huge house. "This is a beauty!" Brice shouts steeping out of the truck door. We walk in and there's a huge dinner table with a huge living room and before I even turn to see the rest- "Oh - my - gosh. You guys made it!" Harlem screamed to me and Brice. "You look stunning Haven." She says looking down at my dress grinning. "Oh gosh Brice, words can't describe how- handsome you look." She tell Brice blushing as pink as she could. "Thank you Harlem you look beautiful." Brice tells her as a natural way of greeting someone. Harlem blushes and shows us to our seats. "Gosh there's a lot of people here." I whisper to Brice happy that I was seated beside him. "I know just bare with them you'll do fine love." Brice whispers to me back making me relaxed. A lot of people are here from the school the mayor and the city's people and we're all sitting at the huge table with fancy dishes already set out for us with food on them. Iv never seen anything so sophisticated. "Uh huh everyone?" Harlem stands. "I want to just thank everyone here tonight from our perfectly made school to our amazing lovely city. I want to celebrate us being out for the summer because everyone loves summer more than anything and I want to celebrate that. Thank you all!" Harlem says lifting her glass of water on the air and sitting down gently. As I started to eat I start to feel weird around all of these people. Yes I am always comfortable around Brice but that wasn't the weird feeling. I want to hide from everyone and I feel like eyes are staring at me. I bend down a little and scoot closer to Brice hoping it was just a chill of something but it wouldn't go away. Everyone just starts to eat and talk and I hear Brice laughing beside me. 'Your just overreacting Haven everything's fine' I tell myself I'm my head. So many noises and talking and my head is pounding but I try to stay calm. 'Why is everyone looking at me?' I look up but there is no one looking at me. 'But why do I feel like everyone is looking at me?' I grab my fork and spoon that we're on each sides of my plate and squeeze them tightly to hold my grip and try to stay calm. I look down trying to stay cool. But this feeling would not leave me. I hear so many noises I see so many faces. 'There probably judging me.' But no one was looking at me. 'WHY IS EVERYONE STARING AT ME!' I still think to myself. "Haven clam down." I feel Brice grab my shoulders and whisper to me. "Haven what's wrong?" He asks me and I look down to see my self shaking harshly to where it's very noticeable. "Nothing I'm fine." I smile at him. "No your not you looked scared." Brice whispers to me. "You need to go outside?" He asks. "No I'm fine Brice." I say feeling embarrassed. I settle back down and stare at my plate thinking that everyone just saw that when no one did because their to distracted talking and eating. I'm losing it. I can't take all the voices and laughter and smells of others around me and the thought of everyone staring at me with this knot in stomach making me want to hide forever and curl in a ball and disappear. "Br-Brice I h-ave to go." I say shaking and low. I step out of my chair as if I was excused and walk out of the front door outside. Now I know everyone is looking and questioning why I left. I breath in slowly looking into the dark sky taking in everything that just happened and then I run out to the street and just stand there. I don't want to touch anything part of that house. What just happened to me and what was that feeling? I stand there and it starts to rain. I stand shivering. My vision gets blurrier by the minute and I fall on my knees. I look straight forward and see a guy standing a little bit away from me. He seems to be coming closer but I'm to lost to even notice. I close my eyes and look up in the rain and then look back forward to see Brice running out to me and the guy closer to me. Brice grabs me and try's to take me back inside but he gives up and sits there with me with rain pouring and everything. "I know." Brice says. "Your gonna be ok." He keeps telling me I'm gonna be ok but I know deep inside that I'm not gonna be ok. I'm don't even feel human here. I stand back up and look forward ahead of me and see the man walking closer. Brice just stays seated on the road noticing the man too. Then a feeling rises in me and I start to hurt inside. Not a sad feeling a hurt a physical hurt and I start hearing echoes. I feel myself moving as if I was being shocked and start to move unconditional to wear I can't control my body, my body is moving alone and I can't stop it. I hear people. "Haven stop!" "Someone get her!" I hear Brice screaming at the people to help and I don't know what's going on or what's happening to me anymore. I just see the the man walking closer to me in the rain. I don't know what's happening to me but I know that no one is going to help me. There to scared. I know that their terrified of me now. I have no idea what's happening to me but seeing me and feeling like this they've never seen it.
The next thing I see is nothing. I see black and I can't feel my body. Am I dead? I have no idea what is happening to me and I can't hear a thing. Nothing but myself thinking.