Afraid of loving you - Jaegan

afraid

a/n: OKAY SO YES I POSTED A CHAPTER LIKE THIS BUT THIS ONE IS DIFFERENT, THIS IS THE ONE THAT I MEANT TO POST AND THE ONE I POSTED A COUPLE MINS AGO WAS A DRAFT SO READ THIS ONE. okay bye. oh and last chapter.

Raegan's p.o.v

"what do you mean he can't stay with us? i'm going to lose him mom, and i can't lose him!" i say

"i'm sorry raegan, he just can't" she says

"but mom! do you want me to lose justin and my relationship!?" i yell

"no, but maybe it's for the best" she says

"for the best?! what the fuck is that supposed to mean?" i yell

"now you watch your language!" she points at me

"oh yeah? what are you going to do now? it's not like you can hurt me anymore! i'm leaving" and with that, i turn around and walk into justin's room

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"you didn't fight for me?!" justin yells at me

"i tried justin, i tried my best!" i say

"i can't believe this" he says

"what else do you want me to do! i tried my best okay justin? maybe my best isn't good enough for you. maybe i wasn't your perfect boyfriend, maybe we weren't meant to be, but i treated you and protected you the best i could"

"i know raegan, but my last chance at a happy life is over. i'm going to the adoption center! know one is going to want to adopt me! i'm broken raegan, that's the whole point im in here"

"what time does the adoption center come?" i ask

"in ten minutes" he replies, "why?"

"no reason"

i walk over to him and give him a hug. he melts in my arms. "i'm sorry" he cries out, "no, justin, i'm sorry that i couldn't protect you" i say

we stay there and hug for what seems forever. we break when we hear the door open. it's the nurse.

"i'm sorry to disturb, but justin, the adoption center is here"

i nod and she leaves the room.

he looks at me and burst into tears, all i can really do is just hug him and wait for him to calm down. he starts to calm down and grabs his back back and slings it on his back.

"are you scared?" i ask him

"scared? no, i'm afraid. afraid that i won't fit in, afraid that i'll be left." he says heading to the door, "everyone is afraid of something" he says turning around to me, "what are you afraid of?" he asks

"well, i'm afraid of loving" i say looking down

"loving? who?" he asks

i don't answer. i walk over to the door and grab his hand, and we walk down to the door, where the adoption center manager is waiting. justin says goodbye to the nurse and he heads out to the car. he looks at me and gives me a wink, and i wink back. he gets in the car and looks down, and i see tears falling from is eyes.

i run out to the car and open the door. i wipe his tears and look at him. i kiss his lips, i pull back and spoke.

"i was afraid of loving you"

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hOws that for a ending?! i hope you guys liked this book, and thank you for the support!

do i hear a sequel? lemme know!