Why do I feel this way about him?(BoyxBoy)

That Night

(Beck's pov)

I waited until Harley was out of sight and kneed Scott. "Leave him alone you prick. " I spatted at him and started back to class. "That kids changed you dude and not in a good way. " Scott groaned. I turned to him and narrowed my eyes, I crossed my arms. "So? He's a great kid and I care deeply about him. " I stated looking at Scott. "He's changed you. You're not yourself anymore. You're a faggot now and he's changed you. It's that kid, damn him." Scott growled. I just turned around and walked off. That day went by pretty fast. I rushed to Harley's sixth period. I've walked him to every class today and I wasn't going to stop. When he saw me he brightened up with a smile. I grabbed his hand and started for his locker. "Oh we can go straight to the car. I don't have anything I need in my locker." He smiled giving my hand a slight squeeze. I smiled and headed for the car, squeezing his hand back with a bit more pressure then he did mine. I stopped in the middle of the hall. Harley kept walking until he basically almost feel because I had stopped and he was still holding my hand. I pulled him to me and softly kissed him. Everyone was looking at us. He squeaked, causing anyone who wasn't looking to look. He kissed me back. I pulled back from the kiss. "Piggy back?" I offered. Instantly he jumped cheerfully. I lowered myself and he jumped on my back and I walked out of the school smiling. Hearing people talk about he and I. I stopped at the car and let him slide off if my back, making sure he didn't fall too fast or get hurt. He climbed it the car as I sat our stuff in the backseat. I got in the driver seat and buckled up starting the car. G Eazy - Let's get lost. I started to sing along. We got home to see our parents all dressed up. "Woah, wait what's going on?" I asked confused. "We're going out for the night and you two are staying home." My dad said as he adjusted his tie a little. Harley nodded and then took our stuff up stairs. Candice came walking over. "Beck, make sure Harley eats something. I know he hasn't been eating lunch. His lunch box is still here everyday and it's worrying me. " She said softly. I looked at the kitchen counter seeing his lunch box. "Yeah, I can So That. I'll talk to him about the eating thing too. I'll be easy about it. " I said softly reassuring her. I said bye to my dad and Candice and then headed up stairs. "Harley." I said standing in the door frame. He looked at me innocently. "Yes Beck?" He asked brushing his bangs a bit out of his face. I inhaled soft and exhaled heavily. "What'd you have for lunch today?" I asked leaning on the frame now. Harley tensed up for a moment. "A sandwich, fruit snacks, a few MnMs and a water." He replied, I could tell he was lying, I looked at him. "Really? Then what's this?" I asked tossing his lunch box to him. He looked at it. "My lunchbox. " he said nervously. "Why was it on the counter when we came home? Why are you lying to me baby?" I asked in a sad tone. Harley got up and slowly made his way to me, he wrapped his arms around me. He was so small and cute. "Beck... I'm sorry." He said digging his face into my stomach, I looked down at him and shuffled us to my bed and sat down so I was somewhat face to face with him. I softly pecked his lips. "Look baby, I'm not that mad. Upset? Yes. Worried? Extremely. So is your mother. I wouldn't even be getting on you about it if she hadn't said anything. " he just nodded not making eye contact. "What's wrong? You're keeping something from me." I said softly, I lifted his head up by his chin making him look at me. His eyes were slightly stained from tears forming. "Baby don't cry." I whispered as I kissed his forehead. He shook his head softly, something was wrong and he wasn't telling me. "I've been forcing myself to throw up too..." he said in a barely audible tone. I looked at him, my face turning slightly red in anger. "What the fuck Harley?" I growled at him. He tensed up shaking, tears slowly rolling down. "I'm sorry!" He cried out hugging himself. I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him to me hugging him. "Harley... I love you. Please don't do this anymore. Please. Not only are you hurting yourself but you're hurting those who care." I said wiping his tears. He looked at me nodding. He looked like was going to say something but he just smashed his lips onto mine. I pulled him closer to me. He pulled away from the kiss. "Can we go eat?" He asked innocently. I smiled standing up and started down stairs with Harley following. Sometime in us going from or room to the kitchen he stripped down to just my hoodie and I think his underwear. "What're you doing?" I asked raising an eyebrow. Harley smiled at me and didn't answer me. He just walked to find something for me to make him. He pulled out a box of Mac n cheese. I chuckled. "Such a child." He stuck his tongue out at me and I just simply béant down and bit his tongue. He instantly pulled back blushing. "No fair!" He pouted I laughed as I put the water on to boil. I looked at Harley and smiled, he was still pouting. I bent down and lifted him up setting him on the counter next to me. He was still pouting. I smirked and kissed him, I made sure he was sitting a bit on the edge as I grinded my lower half against his. He squeaked and pushed me back blushing deeply. "Beck!" He squealed, I laughed as the water came to a boil. I put the noodles in and started stirring the noodles, every few minutes or so I leaned over and kissed Harley, he was still blushing and pouring. The noodles were at the point of them being ready to add the butter and milk and cheese powder. I quickly did that, not giving him any attention while do it. If he wanted to pout then so be it. I won't give him anymore kisses. I dished out Mac n cheese into bowls. Harley grabbed his and went to the table. "No. Couch." I said as he smiled brightly and got up but before he went to the couch he grabbed ketchup and put it in his Mac n cheese. "You monster." I said giving him a nasty face. He just rolled his eyes mixing it in and eating it going to the couch waiting for me to sit. I sat down in a curve and Harley filled in the empty parts as I turned on Riverdale for us to watch. He ate his Mac n Cheese quickly as I did. I looked down at him, he looked up at me and we kissed. I bit his bottom lip and slightly pulled on it. He parted his lips and I slid my tongue in and he tried to wrestle me for dominance but he lost. I got up pulling from the kiss. I lifted him up and he wrapped his legs around my waist. I started kissing him again, getting intense as we made our way up stairs. I pushed him against the wall still kissing him, my tongue rubbing over his lips, grinding my hips up against the Harley. I took him to the bed and laid him down and got over him. I looked down at him, he was breathing heavily and blushing. I looked down his body, he was wearing underwear. I kissed him and then trailed kissed down to his neck, I found his soft spot and started sucking and bitting on it. He gasped and moaned arching slightly. I chuckled pulling back, looking down at him I put my hands at the bottom of the hoodie and pushed it up and over his head. I kissed him, grinding against him with pressure. I made a trail of kisses down to his neck. Then a trail from his neck to the waist band of his underwear. I pulled the snap up with my teeth and then let it fall down snapping.  He gasped looking at me. I pulled my shirt up slowly and teasingly. "Beck... Don't tease me like this. Please..." he said breathing heavily. I smiled and pulled my jeans off I smiled down at him. "You okay baby?" I asked softly cupping his face in my hands as I leaned down and kissed him. He kissed me back. His hand running down to my crotch. He softly stroked my erection. I moaned into his lips and I pushed against his hand. He broke the kiss. "Beck... Babe... please, just do it already." Harley said weakly pulling my underwear down and then his. He looked at me and then down to my erection wide eyed. "I'll be careful. " I said softly, lining up with his entrance. "Tell me if it hurts and you want to stop." He nodded softly looking up at me. I slowly pushed in, I got the head in and he gasped and let out a cry of pain I quickly stopped. "Harley are you okay!?" I asked worried looking at him. I started to pull out. "I'm fine. Don't worry. Continue... please." He said pulling me down to kiss him. I nodded softly, I started to push more into him, his moaned softly. Our upper bodies were barely apart from each other. I got all the way in. "It's all in. I'm going to start moving baby." I whispered as I started to pull out then thrust in, slowly picking up the pace and the pressure. Harley was moaning pulling me down, his nails digging into my back. I gasped morning in pleasure and pain. I kissed him and we continued. I slammed in, cumming. I panted as I slowly pulled out and rolled next to him and pulled him to me. I looked at his hands, damn kid broke skin on my back. "You my baby, you cut up my back. Look at you." I smiled kissing his temples putting my arm around him. He hugged my arm and moved so close to me that we were cuddling. We fell asleep shortly after.