Why do I feel this way about him?(BoyxBoy)

Answer

(Beck's pov)
I was up all night driving around looking for Harley the moment I couldn't find him. I was pissed at Andrew, I knew Harley saw him kiss me and I know he missed me pushing him off and busting his teeth. I looked at the clock, it said it was already eight o'clock in the morning. I grabbed my phone trying to call Harley again for the seventeenth time. His phone just rang and then went to voicemail. "Harley, please answer me. I'm worried about you." I started crying again. "Please call me, I know you saw Andrew kiss me but I can explain. Just please call me. Please... I love you." I said and hung up, tears rolling down my face as I kept driving. I pulled into a gas station to get gas and coffee. That took about five minutes. I tried Harley again praying for him to answer but again voicemail, I didn't leave one this time I just hung up and left to keep searching. I spent the whole day searching.

(Three days later)

I sat in the living room holding my knees to my chest. I still hadn't slept nor given up trying to call Harley or finding him. Candice had gone to the police to put out a missing report. I picked my phone up and dialed Harley's number for the fiftieth time, Its rang and rang but still I got voicemail. I screamed and threw my phone, in came my dad running in. "Beck! Calm down! We'll find him. Don't worry." He said trying to reassure me, I looked at him. My eyes bloodshot red from no sleep, bags under my eyes, and my face stained from tears. "Dad, you don't get it. Harley means more to me then you think. I love him deeply and I'm worried about him. I haven't slept in three days! I haven't eaten in two and I've called him fifty times. Still he isn't answering. This is my fault! If something happened to him how am I going to live with myself?" I was crying again but it felt natural, nothing seemed to bother me about it. The tears just rolled out like nothing.

(Harley's pov)

I looked at my phone, another missed call from Beck. I just laid in the bed of the room I was in at the Inn. I turned the tv on, the news was on. I sat there as a cop came on talking about a missing child, he said my name. My mother had gone to the police about me missing. I started to panic, breathing rapidly as tears rolled down. This was my fault, no. This was Beck's fault I told myself looking at my phone. I hadn't changed my wallpaper. It was still he and I kissing and laughing. I hugged my phone tightly. "Idiot... you cause this." I said softly as if Beck could hear me. I heard a knock on the door instantly I tensed up looking over to the door. "Harley, Its me dear." Morgana, the Inn keeper said from the other side of the door, I sighed "Come in..." I said weakly, she opened the door and then closed it. "Is the news telling the truth?" She asked me, all I could do was cry and nod. "Oh dear, why'd you run away? Did they hurt you? Do they abuse you?" She asked worryingly. "No!" I said quickly not wanting her to think that. "Its just that... my stepbrother-boyfriend hurt me. Not physically but emotionally. We went to a party the night I came here, he went inside to deal with an argument and when I walked in to find him cause I wanted to go home I saw him and another guy kissing. So I-I ran, I didn't want to face him. I've been ignoring everyone's phone calls, my mother's, stepdad's, grandparents', cousins', and his..." I said hugging myself, Morgana looked at me and shook her head. "Nonsense dear, call him. Listen to his voicemails at least. Give him a chance to try and explain. Just because you saw them kissing doesn't mean he wanted it. The other boy could've put himself on him. Your mother looked so hurt and scared on the news. Let him explain his side dear, it might fix this." She said softly. I looked at her and softly nodded. "O-okay..." I looked at my phone and played through the voicemails from Beck, tears started again when I heard his voice.

(Beck's pov)

"What do you mean by more then I think?" My dad asked roughly confused, narrowing his eyes at me. I looked at him and shook my head softly crying. "I love him dad. Not in the way like I love you but in the way you love Candice." I said hugging myself tightly. He blinked his mouth dropped open a bit, this was a lot for him to take in I'm sure. "Dad, I'm sorry..." I said softly looking down, he shook his head. "No don't be sorry Beck. You did nothing wrong. I'm sure of it. I don't care if you're in a relationship with Harley. As long as you're happy I'll be happy. Are you happy with him?" He asked and I looked at him as if it wasn't obvious. "If I wasn't madly in love with him, would I be here doing this right now?" I asked him with slight anger in my voice clenching my fists tightly, my knuckles turning white. Suddenly the my phone rang, I got up to run to it but I just fell back into the couch. My dad answered it. "Hello Ryder speaking. " he said calmly. He looked at me. "Yes ma'am. Here he is. " my dad said handing me the phone. I took it and looked at him. "H-H-Hello?" I said shakingly. The lady on the other line began to speak. "Hi dear, my names Morgana and I have someone here who wishes to talk to you. " she said, I heard the phone being passed to someone. "Beck?" I heard a soft voice, it took me a moment to realize who it was. My eyes brightened up happily. "Harley..." I said softly in a crying tone. "Where are you? Please come home..." I heard him sniff on the other end. "I'm at the West Sea Inn. Please come get me..." he said. "I'm on my way." I said as I got up and started for the car with him still on the phone. "Don't hang up." He said crying on the phone. "I won't. " I promised him starting the car. I instantly pulled out and made my way for the Inn. I drove for a hour to get to him. When I got there he was standing outside with who I'm guessing was Morgana. I parked the car and ripped my seatbelt off and ran to him, he ran to me and jumped into my arms crying. I held him in my arms crying as well. We looked at each other and kissed, I held him to me closely and tightly. "I'm sorry Harley. I missed you. I was so worried about you." I cried, he shook his head. "I'm sorry for everything I caused Beck. I didn't mean to cause so much trouble." He cried. "I love you." I said kissing him. "I love you too." He whispered into the kiss. I parted from him and walked over to Morgana. "Thank you so much Miss, how much do I owe you for all this and the room?" I asked but she just shook her head. "No, you don't owe me anything. I'm just glad to see you two reunited." She smiled, I couldn't let her just have kept Harley here and fed him and everything for free. I pulled out my wallet and handed her a one hundred dollar bill. I placed it in her hand. "Thank you for this." I said softly and pulled the elderly lady into a hug and then left before she could try to give back the money. I looked over at Harley, I kissed his temple. "Call your mom." I said softly. He nodded doing so. I didn't really listen to the conversation between them. I focused on driving us home softly and not passing out. We walked into the house and up stairs, I looked at Harley and kissed him softly. "I told my dad about us. I had to..." I said nervously. He looked at me scared, I heard footsteps coming up to our room and suddenly I saw Candice. "Harley!" She cried hugging him tightly crying. I looked at them with a soft frown. The thought of what could've happened to him if he didn't find the Inn. "Mother... I'm sorry." He said softly crying hugging her. "Don't scare me like that again!" She cried looking at him. He nodded as they both cried. "Candice... I don't want to upset you but can we please get some rest...?" I asked softly. She looked at me and nodded. "Yes. Im sorry. " she said and kissed her sons head and then she kissed mine. "Sleep well boys." I crawled into my bed and Harley crawled in next to me. Candice turned the light off and shut the door, I pulled Harley to me and quickly fell asleep. I felt so much better having him there with me while I tried to sleep.