Why do I feel this way about him?(BoyxBoy)

He Used Me

(Harley's pov)

I woke up the morning groaning, the alarm going off. I nudged Beck. "Babe... wake up." I said softly as he stirred opening his eyes. "Morning baby." He said smiling. I smiled and kissed him before getting out of bed and going to the bathroom starting the shower and getting in and taking a rather fast shower then got out and got dressed in blue skinny jeans, black vans and a maroon AC/DC hoodie that belonged to Beck. "You're taking all my clothes. " Beck teased with a smile as he grabbed some clothes and getting dressed. Beck had on blue jeans, blue vans and a blue hoodie with Disney written on it. He looked over at me. "Nerd." I said bluntly, he looked at my as if he was insulted. "I'm packing bags today to make sure someone has his lunch. Also we're going to a party tonight." I looked at him. "What? A party? I don't wanna go..." I said softly. Beck looked at me and sighed. "It's a college party. You won't see anyone you know besides me. It'll be safe. Trust me." He said  kissing my head softly. I sighed. "Fine. Fine. " I gave in to him.

~Later That Night At The Party~

I walked into the house with Beck. Staying close to him as we walked. He started talking with people, I just stood there awkwardly. He leaned down. "Wanna go get us a drink?" He said to me softy. I nodded and started towards the bar. I got us drinks and then walked back and handed him one of the cups. He took a drink and continued talking with the group of people. I stood there nervously. I looked down at my feet for the whole time. When I finally looked up Beck and his friends were gone. I tensed up greatly. I found my way outside and sat down looking off into the distance. I heard walking behind me, I turned and looked back seeing Beck. I smiled softly happy to see him. He sat next to me and put his arm around me. "Hey, what's wrong sweetheart?" He asked sensing something was off. I shook my head smiling. "Nothing." I said faking a smile, Beck sighed leaning down kissing me. And leaned against him. Suddenly shouting arouse from inside, I inhaled sharply out of fear. I looked behind us seeing two guys inside bickering back and forth pushing each other. I couldn't hear what was being said but Beck got up quickly and jogged inside. I didn't get up to follow him. I just stayed there watching.

(Beck pov)
I entered the doors looking from the one guy to the other. "Andrew! Tyson! Knock it off!" I ordered. Tyson and Andrew looked at me. "Dude! He fucked my sister!" Tyson snapped gesturing at Andrew. Andrew scuffed looking at Tyson. "I didn't know she was your sister! Fucking hell." He yelled at Tyson. I punched Andrew in the gut and looked at Tyson. "Almost everyone except you, Harley, and I have fucked your sister that's in this house. " I snapped sighing heavily. Tyson Held his gut and looked up at me. "The fuck? That's a lie." Suddenly I heard a large number of people say that they've fucked her, hell even a few girls said it. I walked over getting another drink. Andrew walked over to me. "Thanks for that dude." He said as he got himself another drink and taking a sip. "Whatever just stop fucking people's siblings who are suppose to be your friends." I said finishing my drink. Grabbing another. We stood there talking for about thirty or so minutes, I kept getting more and more drinks. Slowly getting more and more drunk. Andrew sighed pulling me down to the couch. I sat down and laughed. "Dude, I had sex with Harley last night." I said not thinking. Andrew looked at me shocked. "You fucked your step brother!?" He said in shock, I laughed nodding. "Yeah and he was a virgin. Hell look at my back. " I said pulling up the back of my shirt showing him, Andrew looked at my back. "Holy shit. He did that to your back?" He asked gasping. I kept laughing and looked at him nodding. "Oh yeah, and it bleed extremely. Blood on the sheets and everything. I had to wash them when we got home from school." Andrew chuckled as I put my shirt down and turned to him. "Damn. You still tapping that?" I nodded and before I could speak Andrew smashed his lips on mine.

(Harley's pov)

I got up to go and get a drink and instantly I saw Beck and one of the guys from the fight kissing. I felt like I'd been shot in the heart, I turned and ran out the front door crying. I couldn't believe it. Beck just used me for sex. I trusted him, I believed he wouldn't hurt me and he did. I didn't know where I was going but I knew I wasn't going to stop until I was far away. I kept running for what felt like forever. When I finally looked back the Josie wasn't insight, I didn't even know where I was. I stopped for a moment to catch my breath and then continued walking to an unknown destination. I walked for what felt like hours, I looked around. I didn't recognize anything around me but I wasn't going to stop. I was getting cold, I looked at my phone. I had five missed calls and voicemails from Beck, plus twenty five text messages. I also had two missed calls and voicemails from my mother. I just ignored them, I plugged my headphones into my phone and started playing music, and continued on my way. I soon arrived at a Inn and walked in shaking from being outside in the cold. The Inn keeper looked at me frowning and brought me a blanket. "H-How much for a room...?" I shivered. "Don't worry about it dear. " the kind lady said taking me to a room and letting me in. "Can I get you anything?" She asked with a smile of pity. I shook my head as I went to the bathroom door. "Thank you... I'm going to just take a hot bath and then go to bed." I said shakingly. The elderly lady nodded and left me alone. I sighed softly turning the bath water on and turning it all the way up in temperature and stripping of my clothes and then looked around and then climbed into the bath sitting down. The water burning but it felt nice compared to the cold of outside. I soon felt myself dozing off in the bath.