Gangsta Love

Chapter Eighteen

*jasmine pov*

"...I'm pregnant." I closed my eyes not wanting to look at him. I then heard a small laugh

"Jas, we just had sex, you can't get pregnant that fast." he said chuckling. I know this boy isn't gonna act slow right now. "Ha, funny JT. I'm being serious ." He then stopped playing with my hair, moved away from me, and sat up.

Here we go

"Where's the just kidding part?" he said with his back turned in front of me. He was now sitting on the edge of the bed. "There isn't one." I said sitting up also but in the bed.

"Naw bruh. There needs to be a just kidding part Jasmine."
Jasmine. He never calls me Jasmine unless he's pissed. I didn't say anything.

"Answer me!" he yelled getting up. I jumped because it caught me off guard. "First, you not about to yell at me like you're my gd father. Second, what you want me to say? huh Jt?" I said trying to stay calm.

One thing me and JT had in common is we both have anger problems. Our arguments are never good.

"I thought you was taking those pills." I shook my head "Keyword, WAS." he looked at me "You know i don't want a baby right now and you know why."

Me and JT already had the baby talk. Right now wasn't a good time. Especially with what he does.

"Well, plans don't always go how we want." I said.

"Why THE FUCK you ain't tell me you stopped taking the meds? You wanted this shit to happen? You think I was just gonna change my mind about how i feel? 'Cause I'M NOT. I don't want a fucking baby!"
The door opened to show the boys standing at the door. By the looks on their faces I could tell they heard everything. Jt was to busy yelling to hear them come in.
"I told you man, I told you. That was the point of the pills Jasmine! You think it's gonna be safe? Remember the shit that happened with you? You really want to bring an innocent child in this?"He then pointed at my still small stomach. "GET RID OF THE SHIT!"
He then turned and saw the boys standing at the door. He walked through them and then a loud slam of the front door was heard throughout the house.

All I could do was drop to the floor and cry.

~2 weeks later~

Me and JT haven't talked since the argument. We still live together but we act like the other one isn't there. I still can't let the argument go. Still can't believe he said all of that honestly.

The only time he has talked to me is asking if I had the abortion already or saying he'll be home late. I just respond shaking or nodding my head.

And no. I didn't do the abortion.

I'm not saying I won't and I'm not saying I will. I just don't know yet. The boys are saying we both need time, but I don't need time, I need an apology from Jt bitch ass.

I understand where he's coming from but then it seems like he doesn't want a baby with me at all. Let's just be honest here, JT is not coming out of the drug business anytime soon or probably never. So basically that means my dream of having a family will never happen, well not with him at least.

I then heard the backdoor open and Travis voice. "Nawwww bruh, you know I won. Stop tryna make excuses."  Travis, Jay, Emmett, and Jt walked in the kitchen. "I ain't makin' excuses. You just got lucky today." said Jay. They were outside playing basketball.

Emmett came and sat by me on the couch. "Hey baby girl."

"Ew you smell like outdoors move away from me." I said scrunching my nose in disgust. "Ohhh so you're gonna do me like that? Your bestfriend? Arrd bet." he said putting his hand on his chest being dramatic. "You know I love you. But I am not loving your smell right about now." All he did was shake his head and laugh.
"Did you and my god son or daughter eat yet?" Emmett had supported me through all this mess about the baby and wants me to keep it. "I just had breakfast earlier." I replied. He got up and walked toward the kitchen and I followed.
"Jt your two babies didn't eat anything since breakfast." Emmett said in a girly voice. Jt was leaning against the kitchen counter shirtless on his phone. He looked so fine and I missed being all under him. I refuse to be the one to speak first though. "She know how to feed herself." he said while still looking at his phone. "She's pregnant, not crippled." The boys just looked at each other then me. " Travis started shaking his head. "I got you Jas. What shall be your craving today?" he said walking over to me and putting one arm around my shoulders. I smiled "I really wanted a burger and a oreo milkshake." He nodded his head and grabbed his keys. "I'll be back girlfriend." he said while snapping his fingers and switching off. The boys always had my back and I loved and appreciated them for that.

~Jt POV~

Me and Jasmine still ain't talking. I'm not happy about it but she already know how I felt about having a baby right now. I'm not with it. A baby is not a good idea. When I have my first child I want to be able to give him or her everything I never had. I can do it right now but not how I want. I want a baby with Jasmine, shit I wanna have a bunch of them with her. But right now, it's not time. Even though we not on good terms, I still love and will kill for her. That's my future wife right there. I had a plan for us and it wasn't time for the baby part.

But after talking to the boys and my parents. I know I'm wrong for what I said to her and I'm gonna apologize. But no simple I'm sorry gonna fix this one.