Closure

Ch.6

     Crying. Thats all I could think of doing, was crying. It was the day before I was to go back to my therapist. I didn't know what she was going to ask me about Brady this time, but I felt unprepared. I sat on my bed that night bawling my eyes out and playing 70's music, I kept on thinking about him. It tore me up inside really bad. He broke me. He left me unexpectedly and vanished soon after. Not a word in months. It makes me crazy because... how can you shun someone who was once an importance in your heart?

     The next morning I woke up late, I felt it all kicking in once again. No motivation. Sleep deprived. Numb. It was all the same cycle over and over again, I was starting to wonder what happy days were like. I jumped in the shower and got ready, I was very dull so I put on a black shirt with some black pants. I didn't bother to do my make up and hair so I walked out of the door and into my dads car.

     "Morning." I said to my dad with an unpleasant emotion on my face.

     "Good morning. How'd you sleep? Ready to see Ms. Peony?" My dad questioned with a weird quirk this morning.

     "Not really. And I didn't sleep all too well last night." I said, I was very blank today.

     Out of the corner of my eye I saw my dad looking at me concerned, "How come?"

     "Because I didn't, alright?? Jesus it's not like you care anyways." I said with complete annoyance.

     My dad stayed silent. I could tell he was disappointed in how I was acting. So he just drove off and took me to my appointment for that day. Even though I've been having sessions about Brady, thats not the only thing on my mind. Of course its a huge occupant of it but I've been thinking about my uncle a lot. I haven't seen him in a long while. I already know he's out on the streets tweaking from something illegal. It just gets hard on me not only with the way he's acting but with how my mom is acting. She's stressing about it big time and she takes it out on my stepdad and I. I'm just glad my stepdad can vent to me about how he feels. It makes him and I both not feel so alone in this kind of situation. 

     We arrived at Ms. Peony's office. I stepped out of the car and walked up the short steps into her office. I checked in and waited as she finished with the patient before me, his name was Tyler. Tyler and I went to the same school ever since seventh grade, him and I used to be really good friends but he's been going through stuff and he's never wanted to open up to anyone. So every day I go to my therapist he's before me and he never ever says 'hi'. It kinda stings but some days I just let it go.

     "Hey amber." Tyler said as he walked out Ms. Peony's door.

     "Oh, hey Tyler." I said very confused. I was extremely surprised that he was talking to me after two years.

     "I um... I saw you crying one of the last appointments. I wasn't spying on you or anything, I had come back to tell Ms. Peony something important." Tyler said, his face was red though. He looked pretty embarrassed.

     "Oh. Yeah. It was nothing really." I said hesitantly.

     Tyler gave me a smirk, "Don't lie to me, Pike. I know you all too well." Then he walked out the door, "I'll catch you later, Pike!"

     I was so confused and I felt a little warm, I knew I turned red. I hate it when I turn red, my freckles stand out more. It was nice that he talked to ma again, I just didn't know why I was so worked up about it. 

     "Amber?" Ms. Peony said, "Are you alright?"

     "Uh... yeah! Yeah! Ready for me now?" I said with slight shock in my voice.

     "Yeah, I've been calling your name for a few minutes. You don't like Tyler, do you?" Ms. Peony said with a smirk and a quirk in her voice.

     "What? Jeez no. Pfft." I said with sheer embarrassment. I didn't want to get myself into another mess.

     " Alright. Well lets get started then." Ms. Peony said as she led me into the room. "So, now that I have a good idea about how the two of you are. When did you guys meet? Where did you guys meet?"

     "Well. We were supposed to have our first date when we first started talking but he had to go back to Idaho for the rest of winter break. Our first date was my first day back to school, he had to register at his new school that day so he didn't have to attend yet. But we were very specific about where we were gonna meet. I told him in the philosophy section at the Barnes and Noble by our schools. We met up at 4:30 and thats when our magical night began. I got there at four thirty on the dot. I sat there listening to the song that reminded me of him and pretended to read a book to avoid standing there awkwardly. I stood back from the book shelf so I could have a better view if he was coming through the CD section. Soon he came around the corner and I quickly put away my book. I remember thinking ' Jeez he's cute'. He greeted me as I did to him. Then I just awkwardly gave him a big hug. I feel like you can really feel a connection with someone through a hug. And boy, he was good at giving hugs. They were amazing! They were just big and warm bear hugs. Then we stood in front of the philosophy section which is smack dab next to the wedding planning area. Obviously we joked about it. So him and I were just standing there as I was being a weirdo not knowing what to do with my body. The whole night was full of us figuring out each other with peeve dislikes and likes. Also we were just being all goofy and joking around and stuff which is the kind if person I tend to be almost 100% of my life. Then the big moment came where we kissed, in front of vegan cookbooks which is frankly really romantic to a hippie like me. He was my first kiss I ever had with a guy. Ya know, because I'm Bi and I've been with one other girl. But yeah. It was a nice first kiss with a dude. Then he bought me coffee at the cafe and we were talking about our families and it was really fun. After we finished our drinks we walked over to the history section and started making sentences out of book titles we spotted. Soon he made a big move and decided to straight up make out with me. It put the cherry on top of the whole night." I explained to Ms. Peony with a smile that crept up on my face.

     "Well. that sounded lovely. Did you notice anything off about him? Bad vibes?" Ms. Peony questioned.

     "Nope. It was all happy times with him. All his dirty work was done over text which sucked." I said with disappointment. 

     "Alright. Well I need to end this session early because I have a wedding I got to go to. I just wanted to hear how your first date with him went. I'll refund some of your money because of this session being cut short. I'll see you soon, Amber." Ms. Peony said with a subtle smile. She lead me to the door which I found my dads car again. 

     'Geez. This goon again.' I thought as I walked to the passenger side door. 

     "Hey amber! How'd your appointment go?" My dad asked. He's been persistently interested in my life for once. I feel like he's actually trying to change his ways. 

     "It was good, but hella short. Can we go and talk over some coffee? I feel like we need to discuss everything thats been happening within these past couple of years so far." I said, I just want him to take me serious for once.

     My dad and I went to our favorite coffee shop, the perky bean, and we started to discuss all of the issues we've had within the past few months. It was going well, I'm not going to get into details of it. It was a lot to process and accept as is. We sat there for about two to three hours just talking about things I knew about and some that I didn't.

     "So were okay now? No more issues we need to discuss?" My dad asked.

     "Nope. Nada" I said. Everything made sense with how everything has gone down within the past few years. Hopefully the next aren't so bad.