monika's pov
i was so done.
we could work but he wasn't trying. i really liked him more than i wanted to admit but i did.
we drove in silence. it was brutal.
"before you go-"
"save it." i cut him off.
it was bitchy but i was pissed.
how can he have no faith in me? no one ever did it just made me mad. i was in my house waiting and then i just screamed at the top of my lungs about everything that's happened to me in the 2 months. nothing went my way ever.
"what's wrong!?" my mother ran down the stairs.
i looked to her with blood shot eyes and a cold stare.
"monika honey you're crying." she stated the obvious.
"you don't say." i said sarcastically then pushed past her. i walked up to my room listening to my mom call my name repeating while i closed my door behind me.
she knocked on my door.
"go away i want to be alone" i said to her.
she didn't respond and i felt her footprints leave in the opposite direction.
everything hit me all at once, my mind was on my dad then Nash, his dead body then tyler's dead body then the heart breaking "it won't work" then my mom never being there then my old life i missed. how the fuck did this happen?
i walked down stairs and grabbed my moms keys to clear my head, she wouldn't care anyway.
i drove to clear my head and then i felt sick again. i pulled over and threw up.
i was now starting to think i was sick not pregnant. i'm over working myself so much. it hurt. everything hurt.
i just never really liked people and now that i do it's just not a normal feeling.
My life is just so different and I think it's a lot to handle. I feel something for Cameron and I don't know if it's because we had sex or because I actually like him. I've been through a lot with him but i don't think I wanna be in a relationship.
Fuck someone help me with all these thoughts.
I wanna call someone but I don't have a lot of friends. I have some of Cameron's friends but which one do I call?
"Hey johnson" I said after dialling jacks number and getting a quick hello.
"What's going on." He asked me
"I kinda need a friend right now, I don't have a lot" I laughed a little awkwardly.
"Can we talk?" I finished.
"Monika I'm your friend, where are you? I'll come get you." He said
"Oh I'm kinda just pulled over, I can drive back home and you can get me?" I asked hoping he would agree.
"I'll get going, see you soon" johnson said, he was honestly the nicest guy.
"Thank you." I appreciated this so much and I went to drive home.
I drove into my driveway at about the same time johnson did so as soon as I got out of the car I just went into his.
"Hey you." He said with a smile
"Hey." I smiled.
He pulled out and started to drive. While focusing on the road he began to talk.
