Change Me •Ethan Dolan•

Four

Ethan slowly reached his hand over to grasp mine. I didn't move or look at him. The tears coming from my eyes started to fall slower and slower as the minutes went by, until they stopped falling all together. Ethan and I both sat in silence as I stared at nothing. "Do you want to listen to music?" Ethan asked breaking the empty silence, I nodded then took out my phone and played on of my playlists on Spotify, letting a random song come on. Blue by Troye Sivan played through my phone speakers. I turned over to face Ethan, "Im tired." I breathed out, he put his other hand up to carress my cheek, "Go to sleep, princess." He whispered catching me off guard, princess. No one has ever called me that. Not even Jack. I smiled and leaned into his hand. I listened to the music and closed my eyes, letting myself drift off to sleep slowly as the songs change and Ethan slowly carresses my cheek while holding my hand.
Why am I letting him do this.
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I woke up and looked over to where Ethan was sitting, and he wasnt there. I looked around and there was no one in sight. Not even the shadows of the nurses showed on the curtains of my hospital room, What time is it? I thought to myself. My music is still softly playing my phone speakers. I picked it up and checked the time, 3:26 A.M. I heard the door open and close softly as if whoever it was, was trying to be as quiet as possible. I looked over to see my favorite nurse, Heather. "Hi Miss Heather!" I happily said, "Hey darling, how are you feeling?" She asked as she checked my IV and my blood pressure, "Not too good but I'll be fine." I told her, after a couple seconds of silence I spoke up, "Why are they making me go to a mental hospital?" I asked her, pushing back the tears that were going to spill from my eyes, "Its not really for you being crazy, cause theres alot of crazy people there. Its more like rehabilitation, cause of the alcohol, they think you were trying to kill yourself by drinking too much, so basically they think you're an alcoholic. I dont know why theyre making you stay for a month, I think thats a little too long." She told me, "But I think you'll be okay, youre a strong girl. I'll try to talk to someone to see if you can go for less time though." She added on, "And if all else fails, I promise you I will visit you as much as I can." She smiled, and I started to cry, "Miss Heather I just want to go home." I told her, she started to rub my arm, "I know darling. I know." She soothingly said to me, "I dont want to go back. Its like a jail. They treat us like animals." I cried, "I bet if you do everything they ask and be good, you'll do fine. You just have to listen." She told me, "Ill go right now to see if you can go for less time." She smiled to me, and I sniffled, "Really?" I asked, she nodded, "Thank you Miss Heather." I smiled and wiped my eyes, "No problem darling." She said and walked out of the room. By myself once again. I thought to myself, I sniffled again then turned the tv on, my childish self put it on disney channel. I watched whatever show came on, New Disney is shit what happend to the old Disney, I thought as I watched whatever the heck this show was, I grabbed my phone and went on YouTube to watch something funny, to hopefully make me feel better, that is until someone else came into my room, "The nurse told me you were up." Jack said as he sat in the chair next to my bed, "Ethan and Grayson went home to take a shower and get different clothes." He added on as if he knew what I was going to ask, "Okay." I replied, "How you holding up?" He asked, "Good..." I said, "I love this song!" He said randomly as There For You by Troye Sivan played from my phone, he started to dance like a goof causing me to laugh, "Youre weird! Stop!" I said through my laughter, "Okay, Okay." He said sitting back down, "You should probably go back to sleep though, its like 4 a.m." He told me, "I cant." I said, "Why?" He asked with a confused look, "I just cant fall asleep. Heather was in here earlier, she said shes going to try and talk to someone about less time at the mental hospital." I told him, "Thats good. And even if she didnt, Id still visit you and sneak you in some pizza, cause I know food there is crap." He winked, I smiled, "Really?" I asked, "I sneaked you in candy last time right? I keep my promises." He said and I laughed, "One day youre going to get caught." I told him, "Well hopefully after this month we wont have to do this again." He sighed, "Me too." I said. "Go to sleep, Ethan will be here by the time you get up." He demanded, "Fine." I said then rolled over and closed my eyes, actually excited about waking up.
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This honestly was a filler haha
~C