Change Me •Ethan Dolan•

Five

My eyelids slowly started to open as I woke from my slumber. Disappointed once again. I thought to myself, upset that I have to spend yet another day in this living hell. I look over and surprisingly both Jack and Ethan were sitting on the other side of the room, but they were too engaged in their own conversation to know that I was awake. Am I finally invisible? I sighed, guess not, I caught Ethan and Jacks attention just by one small sigh. "You're awake." Jack said stating the obvious, "Water is wet." I sarcastically say back to him, "Can I go home yet." I whined, "About that...." Ethan started, "We have bad news." He finished, "Heather came in crying, it was about the mental hospital." He said and my stomach dropped, "Wh-what?" I choked out, knowing this was not going to end well, "She talked to the main doctor, and he said instead of reducing the amount of time youre staying at the asylum, theyre increasing it. They want you there for three months." He frowned, my breathing became heavier, I choked out a sob, "No- I- Ca-" I started to hyperventilate, "J-Jack I ca- I cant stay there for three months!" I sobbed, "Lea calm down." Ethan begged, but me being me, I didnt, "I cant stay there for three months! I ca- I ca- I cant do it!" I hiccuped, "Lea your heart monitor is going nuts, calm down." Ethan said again, but I didnt listen, "I cant calm down!" I yelled my breathing still quick and heavy, "She's having an attack, go get a nurse." I heard Jack say, I feel like im going to die, I wish I would. My lungs started to burn along with my throat from my quick breathing and sobbing. I hear my heart monitor beeping rapidly, but thats not important to me right now. Three months. You'd be better off dead. My mind says to me and its true. "Lea? Lea? Lea look at me." Heather said with her accent, with my breathing still at a quick pace I looked at her, "Deep breaths. Deep breaths." She said making slow gestures as she took deep breaths, "Breath with me." She ordered, I listened and took deep breaths as she took them, "Your going to be okay." She hummed as she carressed my hair, "Why?" I cried, "I dont know, but keep breathing slow okay?" She asked, I nodded my head. "I have to deal with another patient I will be back soon." Heather said and quietly left the room. I dont want to talk, I dont want to do anything, I dont even want to be alive, "Lea are you okay?" Ethan asked and put his hand on mine, I pulled my hand away and kept staring out the window, "Lea...." Ethan trailed off, leave me the fuck alone, I thought as he tried to talk to me and hold my hand. "Why arent you talking to me?" He asked, maybe cause im mad, or I just dont want to? I dont have to talk to you if I dont want to. I argued in my head, but this kid just wont stop. "Please look at me..." He begged, I refused and kept staring at the window. Until he light grabs my chin to make me look at him, Feeling major Deja vu right now, my eyes connected with his hazel ones, my mad facial expression immediately going soft. "Why wont you talk to me?" He asked again, I go to speak but nothing comes out. So I just shrugged my shoulders. I avoided eye contact, cause he makes me feel like im being childish. He moved his hand to the side of my face, "I know its hard for you, with this whole situation, and the doctors are being ridiculous I know. But Lea, I want to help you, I- I..." He paused for a minute, "I like you." He finished, I suddenly shot my eyes up to look into his. "Its weird, I just met you, I know. But I do, Im serious. Please dont give me the silent treatment. If you want I can sit here and rant about when I first saw you and my full emotions." He smiled, and I laughed a little. "If you dont answer me I'll rant, I'll do it." He said raising an eyebrow, I giggled, I giggled, what the heck. "Okay here I go." He said, waiting for me to stop him, but I didnt cause Im curious of what he was going to say. "Holy cow, okay, I dont know where to start. Lea, the first time I saw you, I was absolutely in awe because you are so beautiful, and when you came out of the room all tired and cuddly, I almost lost my shit cause you were so cute. I knew at that moment you were the one. These past few days have been crazy, but im so glad that Jack invited me to go to that party, even though this happend. I wouldve never thought I would fall for someone I knew for less than an hour, but fuck I did." He laughed a little, "And when this is all over and you can be home again, I want to spend as much time as I can with you. Jack told me everything that happend in the past, and I hate that you had to go through that. I want to be what you live for, I never want to hurt you, I want be there for you every second I can, I-" He said before I cut him off by kissing him, Lea what the fuck are you doing stop! My mind said to me but I didnt listen, I listened to my heart cheering me on. "I like you too." I groggily say after we pulled away.
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