Over Again - Ziall (Sequel to "Just One Time") ✔️

Chapter 5 - I want to move on.

Niall's P.O.V

That was the worst day of my life, after the one where Zayn abandoned me of course. I couldn't believe I had met Liam again though. It made all my past resurface. It made me think again of how much I missed Zayn. I felt so broken. Couldn't Liam be Zayn? So I would have had the possibility to meet him again and maybe yell at him and hit him like he deserved. Though sometimes it makes me feel like he deserves so much worse.

Yes, I was so mad at him, but I missed him too because I was still in love with him.

I was just walking around when I saw a boy who looked really familiar. He really looked like Zayn described himself when we were still together. But he couldn't be Zayn, right?

I stopped to see if everything was alright as I saw him looking stressed. I didn't want to have a poor boy on my conscience.

“Hey mate. Are you alright?” I asked.

“I-uh-I-um.” The boy froze up like he couldn't get his words out. “Yeah I'm fine. I need to go though.” He mumbled before standing up from the bench and starting to walk away. I’m not sure what, but something told me to stop him, so with a hand I stopped him from walking away from me. I didn’t know why I did this, but I was really curious about this boy.

“Wait! Are you sure you’re okay? You don’t look so good.” He looked up into my eyes and when he did I saw something into his eyes. I didn't know what it was, the only thing I knew is that after looking into my eyes he immediately burst into tears and sat back down on the bench covering his face with his hands.

“Are you okay?-Shit that was stupid. You’re crying. I-um. My name's Niall. Do you want to tell me what’s wrong?” I asked and he just laughed.

"I'm sorry" he said and he looked up at me again. Ok now I was really confused, man!

“No need to apologise mate. We all have our days. My day seems to be today too.” I started to say. "You sound like and look like someone I um-used to know, a friend I guess you could call him. I never seen him personally though, just how he described himself to me. You seem to fit the description. Ha. How funny. Oh well. Never mind about that. What’s your name?”  I asked and he froze up again. What's wrong with this boy?  I thought.

He stayed like that, so I said again. "Ok, let's start all over again! My name's Niall. What's yours?"

He didn't move, he stood still and he seemed in deep thoughts when he finally said.

"My name's Zayn."

Oh no, that was my turn to freeze up. I couldn't believe it. It couldn't be really him.

No, no, no, it couldn't be. Maybe he was another Zayn, yeah that’s it. It’s someone else. But then again, how many people are named after Zayn? And how many people look exactly like Zayn used to describe himself?

It had to be him. Oh fuck!

"Yes Niall, that Zayn." he sighed not looking at me anymore.

"Oh my God..." I really didn't know what to say. I just stood there with my mouth hanging open and it was becoming hard even to breathe.

"Look Niall, I really am sorry! It wasn't supposed to happen how it did." he told me. 

It was in that moment that I realised that it was really him, and I did something I should not have done, at all. I hugged him. 

I literally threw myself into his arms. He stood there shocked for a moment but then he hugged me back. And in that moment everything seemed fine again, even though I knew it wasn't.

I shouldn’t have hugged him, after the countless nights of crying over him, how he just left me when he took my virginity. I was at least expecting a goodbye. But I never even got that. Zayn was no-where to be seen.

"Oh my God Zayn, I can't believe I can finally see you and that it's really you. I missed you so much!" I started to sob very hard; I was overwhelmed with everything Zayn.

"Calm down Ni! I missed you too. You know, I looked you from afar all this time, but I've never had the courage to come near you and to tell you everything. I'm sorry for everything." At that point I couldn't see anymore, as the tears were blurring my vision. I pulled immediately away from the hug. I couldn’t believe he had watched me break everyday a little more and that he didn't do anything to stop it.

"You did what? You saw me break every single time a little more and you never did anything? So what? You like to see me breaking? Oh now I understand, you had your little show all this time and I've just lost my time going after you, someone who likes to see me suffer. Someone who doesn't deserve me at all! And you know what? I hate you so much, but I hate myself more for realising it now and for still loving you after all this time!" I yelled with all the anger I had in my body, and I can tell you, that was a lot.

"Ni, it's not like that, I swear! Please forgive me. I want to start all over again with you." He pleaded. I could see it written all over his face that he wanted another chance, but I’m not doing that. He can’t just watch me from afar, watch me break over and over.

"First, don't call me 'Ni', only people who care for me can call me that. Second, get away from me. I don't want to see you anymore!" I yelled again and I started to walk away leaving him there with a hurt look on his face.

I didn't care if he was hurt, he hurt me all this time so the only thing I wanted was to finally move on. After knowing he likes to watch me break and wants nothing to do with me, I can move on. Well, I can at least try.

I arrived at the flat I was sharing with Josh, and as soon as I entered it I threw myself into my best friend's arms sobbing violently.

"Ssh, calm down Ni. Everything's gonna be alright." he said rubbing my back.

"No it is not" I cried. Nothing will be okay.

"Yes it is, trust me. Now, will you tell me what happened?" he asked.

"I met him, do you understand? I finally met him, after one year." I cried.

"And isn't it amazing? You waited all this time for this moment to come." He was obviously confused. I have been waiting 

all this time for this moment, I just thought it would be so much better than this.

"Oh you don't understand. Yeah, I met him but, he told me he watched me from afar all this time. I was his little show, he liked seeing me suffer!" I said.

"Oh Ni, I bet it's not like that. I'm sure..." He was interrupted by the sound of the doorbell.

"Josh, I'm going" I sighed standing up and trying to wipe away the tears from my face.

I opened the door and I saw something or better someone I didn't really want to see at the moment or ever again.

"Please Niall, let me in! I want to apologise!" Zayn said with tears streaming down his cheeks.

How did he know where I lived?

Hello!

So this is the 5th chapter. I (@LamPayning) wrote this and the amazing @emilyjayne2013 helped me to correct it and she added some things. Thank you so much!!

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